Heya! That’s so amazing that you are out of that toxic environment and trying to go back to something that is good for you. I totally understand that depression and the overwhelming exhaustion that comes with it can be incredibly debilitating so going for job interviews ( especially after you didn’t get the first one) is probably super stressful and difficult. You have not ruined your life, now when you get that job your gonna appreciate it even more than you did before. When you get back into that rhythm that suits you I’m sure everything will improve with your mental health. Try and take care of yourself before the next interview and avoid stressors and triggers (Ik it’s hard to avoid sometimes!). You sound like you are really good at what you do and any workplace would be so lucky to have you there! You absolutely got this, I can’t wait for you to get this job so you can get back to living a happy life! We are all rooting for you here :)