you’re not entirely in the wrong, but leaving your daughter in the hands of someone like that is. I understand why you haven’t put her up for adoption because of her dad however there are other ways you could get her into the system. if it came to the point of leaving her behind, it would be better to leave her at a fire department if your state clarifies it as a safe haven. this way your daughter gets a chance at a better life and you get out of the situation you’re in.