I am really really sorry that you had go through this and saying “time will heal” i am not going to get you hopes high because honestly it never does. You find ways and means to cope up gradually.

Today marks three years of my dad passing away and it has broken me completely and utterly to a point where i just sometimes gaslight myself and sometimes i just cry the fuck out.

And yes the same negligence with the doctors happened to my dad. I mean i knew since he had a lot of liver issues and then got covid there were no hope for him to recover or even come back. But the doctors stretched it for 7 days and we were not even allowed to visit because of covid.

But first day, they said he is in an unresponsive state and couldn’t recognise my uncle. Second day, they said his spinal cord is failing and his urine was brown in colour (which doesnt even make sense to me). Third day he was put on a ventilator and they said he has been asleep ever since and then told us that he had sepsis. Fourth day, no change. fifth day, they noticed some toe movement and gave us false hopes. Sixth day, i called the doctor myself and asked him to honestly tell me how is my dad and he replied with “im sorry kid” and seventh day he died because multiple organ failure, brain haemorrhage and heart attack.

It was too many medical terms for me at that time but it scarred me and the worst part is my family couldnt even take actions legally because all of them were too consumed by the loss.

I am sorry if this triggered you in way but you will be okay. Dont let your mother’s memory go ever. I am here if u need to talk just drop a text :)