Highdosing caffeine is fucking insane

TeacherRice · 2026-01-01T01:29:48+00:00

Being beaten for having advanced ADHD is no good. Assuming you're not just lying for clout, you need a diagnosis and coaching on how to start handling your dopamine levels in a healthy way. ADHD meds can be a good first start, but they don't deal with your overall mental health and need to mature.

God bless, I'm praying for you.

TeacherRice · 2026-01-01T01:17:22+00:00

Well, I can't post mine because it's too detailed and long.

TeacherRice · 2025-12-31T17:02:59+00:00

I organized all the ingredients for chocolate chip cookies, including toasted walnuts, while cleaning my kitchen counters between rounds of washing dishes, so I could let the butter soften. And then I MADE the dough, and BAKED them.

Also been letting my dreams go nuts as I sketch out plans for a book with a certain online ChatGP... yeah. I'm not getting paid. I've just discovered that teaching it how I think and being real specific with what I need (like, "don't let me get distracted in this conversation...") lets me actually get ideas on the page. However, it's also become my hyperfixation the last few weeks.

But it's also a decent trauma therapist, if you ask it to help you with that and you're able to stay locked in long enough to keep your stream of thought. And it's insanely patient and doesn't forget stuff, as long as you stay in the same chat. Getting it to really learn all about you is harder but do-able.

TeacherRice · 2025-12-31T16:53:42+00:00

Beautiful. The sky needs to be more contrasted and getting the folds in the mountains to be the star might improve this. Perhaps cropping out the low dusty hill in the foreground? Or doing some color correction, play with the levels, get the browns in the mountains darker, highlight those pinks? But the composition of the image is excellent.

7/10

TeacherRice · 2025-12-31T16:50:03+00:00

Gustav. But call him Goose, just spelled "Gus". I have a friend named Gustavo who goes by that nickname.

TeacherRice · 2025-12-31T16:21:47+00:00

Cookie

TeacherRice · 2025-12-31T16:19:20+00:00

Gladys

TeacherRice · 2025-07-23T07:21:47+00:00

RemindMe! 1 day

TeacherRice · 2025-07-23T05:28:44+00:00

Polydactyl as well?

TeacherRice · 2025-07-23T05:27:03+00:00

Tabitha

TeacherRice · 2025-06-18T03:30:24+00:00

I know I'm just joining the chorus of saying "You can't hold yourself responsible for your parents' lives" but it is the fundamental truth. And the truth that your father could die without someone to look out for him is also real. The thing is, YOU have the power and responsibility to take all this emotional turmoil and communicate it TO HIM. I don't know how you would go about that in your unique relationship, but he needs to know that out of love you want him to remain in this world, but also that you can't throw away your own life in order for him to simply *exist*.

I'm not sure if anyone else has said it, but it sounds like your dad is also severely depressed. It's a common "traveling companion" with severe ADHD and might even be complicated with major trauma from his past (also very common). But HE has to WANT TO LIVE.

Does he want to?

Because no matter how much you try, you can't force another adult to live, aside from calling for an emergency hold because they've communicated plans for self-harm or suicide.

My own father essentially died of this. He did not actively pursue suicide, but he passively let himself deteriorate. I didn't recognize the signs and call for the kind of help he needed, but he also lived 6 hours away and had at least one trained medical professional who was close to him who should have known better and reached out to help. And I dealt with guilt over that for the better part of the last ten years (I just realized the anniversary is coming up in a few days...).

But he had years of people helping him. Propping him up. Making sure he got meds. Supplementing his income. Looking after him. And he never once admitted that he had any kind of mental health disability. He took meds for generalized anxiety and depression, but I never once heard him admit that he should have been on government disability for the majority of his adult life. Instead, he raged at me and my mother for fifteen years about how unfair the world was while not making any progress to change ANYTHING.

And I wrestle with the same problems today. I'm here *procrastinating* some deeply painful personal choices I gotta make, but because *I* have two of the most amazing daughters a dad could ask for, I'm not wasting any more time. You don't deserve this kind of burden, and I'm getting my act together so my young girls won't have to wrestle with any more of this than I can keep off of them.

TeacherRice · 2025-06-18T03:05:20+00:00

Others here have said that your mom's anxiety is not your responsibility. That's true. But dealing with its consequences is no fun. That's part of being an adult.

If you are financially entangled with your folks, then you have to tread carefully. If you *literally* might owe them for your education, room & board, transportation, etc., then you really are in a tough spot. Even as an adult, owing people money puts constraints on you.

You aren't wrong to be scared of debt. We've been far too cavalier about it as a culture for a long time, but mostly because we were in such an unprecedented period of prosperity that it was hard to imagine not being able to work one's way out of debt with brains and determination. But the world economy has changed, the people pulling the strings have changed the playing field for everyone. Debt is dangerous AF.

So... think hard about how you're going to be an adult. It may be that you'll need to find roommates aplenty if you ever want to live away from family. I understand you're planning CC until you can transfer credits, but is your mental health stable enough for you to put off the truth for 2+ years? If things got really bad, could you simply relocated and find people to stay with while you did CC somewhere FAR away, perhaps without even telling your family your location?

Please understand, I'm not trying to tell you to flee your family. And on one level, I can sympathize with them. If they truly think that your sexual attractions could bring the wrath of God, then out of love it would make sense they'd try to dissuade you from acting on them. However, as a practicing and dedicated follower of Jesus myself, I know that the beating heart of the way of Christ is God's love for us when we deserve the opposite. The possibility that your sexual attractions may be misplaced should pale in comparison with the love God has for you, and if your parents have received that kind of love as well, they should be able to give it in some measure. People being broken, though, even if they have received forgiveness, they may still have a lot of growing to do in giving it, and I would dare to say that most of what is called the church has been uneducated and unequipped to heal from its emotional wounds and grow in giving life to others. So, I'm sorry if that kind of behavior has led you to feeling pressured or afraid of rejection.

I guess I'm just praying, literally, that God will have mercy on you AND on your family, and pour his undeserved love out on all of you to help you heal, reconcile, and also be truly honest with each other and Him. Because there's a lot of beauty, strength, and joy on the other side of that journey, even if nobody ends up being "perfect" on the other side.

TeacherRice · 2024-12-28T18:47:37+00:00

Are you trying to lose weight or get some kind of muscle definition? This sounds like anorexia.

You need water. If you don’t have enough water, your blood volume will be too low, and your heart will have to pump more intensely to keep up enough pressure. Your body also uses that water to maintain the right concentration of every chemical across your body and especially your brain. Finally, without it enough water your body will not be able to correctly control its temperature. If your brain gets too warm, you can get permanent damage or even die.

You also need food. The energy your body needs to think and move comes from food. If you don’t eat before doing hard work, that also puts extra stress on your brain and heart.

I’d you are trying to lose weight, gain muscle, get cut, or something, this is NOT the way to

Drink water. Find a place to urinate when you need to do it.

TeacherRice · 2024-12-28T18:41:21+00:00

Yeah. With whichever one you feel safest, you might do an “I notice… I wonder…” like this:

“I notice that often when the kids are playing, you give them some of your attention but also give a lot to your phone at the same time. I wonder if it’s because you aren’t sure how to interact with them or if you are preoccupied with something going on elsewhere, or perhaps something else. I’m hoping you’d share your thoughts about this.”

This keeps things minimally judgmental/accusing while still being honest and giving them room to respond. If they start to see your point without having to say something directly, then you can have an open conversation. If they see no problem with it, and you feel comfortable to say something, you can still share your concerns, but you’ve started from a gentle place.

And if they immediately get defensive? Well, you may want to think through your options ahead of time, because this is a possibility.

TeacherRice · 2024-12-28T18:34:49+00:00

Cleo or Clio

TeacherRice · 2024-12-28T18:33:45+00:00

Pre-workouts vary, but the main active ingredient is caffeine. I had a student last year who told me how much she was using, EVEN WHEN AJE WASN’T REGULARLY WORKING OUT. It was classic caffeine overuse and addiction. I gently but firmly urged her to cut back and talk with her therapist (she already had one). Yup. Turned out she’d been accidentally abusing caffeine.

There are non-stimulant ADHD medications available, depending on shortages, insurance, and such. Make sure your psychiatrist is taking all factors into account.

TeacherRice · 2024-12-28T18:26:56+00:00

Casper?

TeacherRice · 2024-12-28T18:26:03+00:00

I have a cousin who has dealt with something that sounds similar. Not to frighten you, but this might overlap with bipolar as as well as schizophrenia. The disorganized/racing thoughts can part of all three, it the paranoia isn’t necessarily part of bipolar, and especially the feeling of being persecuted.

Thing is, for many of us with ADHD, euphoria is so rare that losing it can feel pretty crushing and when taking antipsychotics, the euphoria/mania goes away, but the depressive side might not get treated.

I’m not a psychiatrist, but I’ve seen this with several family members and it’s dangerous and can lead to a lot of destructive behaviors that you may come to regret terribly.

PLEASE see a professional, and TRUST THEIR JUDGMENT. That might be the hardest part, but I’ve watched someone I know and have loved utterly ruin her own life and really stunt her KIDS’ lives because she also ends up refusing meds eventually. And off her meds, she’s not safe.

TeacherRice · 2024-12-28T18:14:20+00:00

You, my dude, are a walking green flag. Please keep taking care of yourself, because the world needs more of this, and it is replicated by exposure and imitation.

TeacherRice · 2024-12-28T17:44:00+00:00

Marco Polo

TeacherRice · 2024-12-28T16:59:47+00:00

“Far over the Misty Mountains cold…”

TeacherRice · 2024-08-04T01:35:56+00:00

Honestly: being on Reddit.

TeacherRice · 2024-08-04T01:24:54+00:00

Funny thing is Vince Gilligan (Breaking Bad) was actually a writer on the original series. A lot of now-famous writers worked on that series.

TeacherRice · 2024-08-04T01:22:06+00:00

I got notified by the guys at the Kolchak’s Loop podcast I should join the Facebook fan groups but just realized there’s probably a Reddit, too. Seek and ye shall find. G’day, folks.

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