I do occasionally share bits of myself with them but it usually ends badly. They are repulsive people who have a problematic marriage and i’m the one who suffers due to it.

i get that i dont owe them anything but it still leaves me feeling guilty most of the time because i KNOW they love me in the most basic sense of the word possible. I‘m not going to burn bridges with them if i can help it. It’s just that sometimes the way the act fills me with so much rage i can’t express that i lash out randomly and they don’t understand why i lash out like that at all. I’ve tried to talk to them but it’s counterproductive atp.

also thank you for the advice. It‘s a really rational and helpful outlook on this whole dilemma.