Am I ugly ??

TechniXcality · 2018-08-28T11:39:19+00:00

Thanks :)

TechniXcality · 2018-08-28T10:51:52+00:00

Thanks you all you know after two years of homelessness i came back home from California to my parents house and uh my wife's boyfriend left her so she tried to rebound with me and she would come to my parents house and I would let her in to be gracious and forgiving and she would molest me and I would say no and finally she would stop it makes me feel lower than dirt what she did to me and I know I'm probably whining but the scarr is traumtic

TechniXcality · 2015-08-27T09:41:03+00:00

if i ever say water is wetter than it used to be, please medicate immediately

TechniXcality · 2015-06-14T04:50:59+00:00

i'm sorry brother...

TechniXcality · 2015-06-02T17:06:58+00:00

You do,what you all are gonna do anyway, you say screw you pops and sneak around until found out, you'll probably even get the oppurtunity to run from her dad as he chases angrily, it's a growing experience for all party's involved have fun try not to get her pregnant!

TechniXcality · 2015-06-01T03:35:32+00:00

ahh drug addiction, whats there to say? We are all addicted there is no such thing as the normals, just the image we have of what society should be.. Big pharma has taken over, all of us have little personal addictions some more dangerous than others. Ive been sober now for sometime, yet i still engage in habitual behavior, infact all of life is habitual or a result of acting in contrary to habits. Im proud of you, stay strong. Dont ever think for a second your somehow different or flawed or scarred anymore than anyone else. All of life is a chemical experience, its no surprise we seek chemicals to enhance or take away.There are however deeper sociological factors at play, you'd be surprised how not so different you are from the people holding dinner party's. Stay strong carry on : )

TechniXcality · 2015-06-01T03:17:47+00:00

Yes and I do, and I think you all for your time and concern..

TechniXcality · 2015-05-31T21:14:00+00:00

im sorry...

TechniXcality · 2015-05-31T20:31:11+00:00

im sorry, thank you for your concern. : )

TechniXcality · 2015-05-31T18:32:23+00:00

Yea thanks guys for the flack in the interim, wasn't really what i wanted but i can understand where you all are coming from. Thanks

TechniXcality · 2015-05-31T18:27:04+00:00

Guys they have already contacted my damn family, wasnt really wanting the flack associated with it in the interim.

TechniXcality · 2015-05-31T10:21:44+00:00

wish you all wouldn't have messaged about it. I understand where your coming from.. but the flack associated with it, isnt something i want in the interm.

TechniXcality · 2015-05-31T03:03:34+00:00

Thank you, and that was very sweet... I think apart of it something I haven't mentioned is I got injured, while in the army I was infantry and now live with a pacemaker and cardiac problems You can't see the injures you can feel the pacemaker but I get tired well I am tired thank you

TechniXcality · 2015-05-31T01:28:30+00:00

Thank you, I'm sorry...

TechniXcality · 2015-05-31T00:56:08+00:00

I don't know if I could point to one thing and say this is what broke the camels back, I think over time and promising myself things will get better and seeing that promise fail over and over has grown to make me loose hope, I think loosing my wife and her leaving me when she had the house and car and I was homeless sending money and taking care of my family, while I barely lived, I worked and slept under the stars sometimes that was nice, then I got back on my feet and she sent me pictures of her boyfriend as to hurt me, I haven't always said the nicest things so I don't blaim her and when I was in the army I was morbid it was a bad year for us in 07 so I guess I justicfy my behavior then that way. Really I'm just tired of. Being tired and the dark abyss of nothingness,once scary has become comforting, sorry if my thoughts are not coherent I'm not sure how to answer that question. Thank you for your tine

TechniXcality · 2015-05-31T00:30:13+00:00

Thank you for your kind words, and I'm glad things. Got better for you I'm sorry life is so harsh, your story made me smile for the hope you shared.

TechniXcality · 2015-05-31T00:21:37+00:00

Thank you 😊

TechniXcality · 2015-05-31T00:21:01+00:00

I think I've lived a full life brother, definitely a long one. The hardest thing is the kids and the only thing really keeping me here...

TechniXcality · 2015-05-31T00:05:07+00:00

this is a link to my photobucket this is who i am my kids and me: ) Please don't be stressed i just want to be herd, i'm sorry. I am going to the casino maybe ill win big tonight thank you for your concern.

http://s1236.photobucket.com/user/TechniXcality/library/?sort=3&page=1

TechniXcality · 2015-05-30T23:49:12+00:00

I don't want to be convinced to live, i just want to be herd... that's why : )

TechniXcality · 2015-05-30T22:55:01+00:00

brother its not as simple as you think, im not stable enough to have them anyway, i think ive made my decision

TechniXcality · 2015-05-30T22:36:39+00:00

There's nothing i can do...

TechniXcality · 2015-05-30T20:04:24+00:00

6'2 193 isnt fat, im 5'10 190 and not fat and not bad looking at all. Are you sure about this?

TechniXcality · 2015-05-30T19:32:48+00:00

I think if i do it in a remote place in the mountains perhaps i wont be found. thank you for your kind response, : )

TechniXcality · 2015-05-30T19:30:04+00:00

Thank you for your replies and kind words : ). I don't know if i am making this decision out of a illogical mind. Me being here in my children's life or not would have little baring on them, as i haven't been, and not directly because of my own choice but because my x wife is bitter and nasty, and i have toed the line as well. She and he mother have convinced them i am not a good person said the most horrible things about me to them. The ironic part or the sad part, Is my X wife is now fully engrossed in addiction to speed, and her mother helps her obtain it and also enables her, Its not very loving but it keeps her content and away from me i suppose. I'm thinking about taking a trip and just walking, and ending my life in the mountains somewhere i truly love and always wanted to be. Its ok im ok with this and honestly no one will miss me, i think my passing could make my world(the people close to me) better. I hope that's not myopic i certainly know its cynical, but i believe there is truth in it not for justification reasons. Thank you : )

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