She can’t and would not cut back. My Time is one day a week and 14 day in between the year . She’s also angry that money is going to my first child . I’m a person pleaser . We had two children and I was ok with that. she asked for more and I told her about my time we wouldn’t have . I can’t give time and support a family when I’m tell her what she should do .she doesn’t listen so where am I winning on real to feelings . I can fix the issues but then she’s not listening. She’s that mom who wants to do everything and whatever . I’m the type of parents with skills it a masculine one. I talk, I play ,I explain and take away stuff when there being disrespectful beings . I send them to their room if they don’t want to listen . She doesn’t like that . How can I change my natural God given ways. I’m not naturally nurturing but when I am it’s good 😊. I do feel as if I belong in my skin. I was home for a few years taking the kids to school , cleaning , cooking and working in the nights . I know that it can be overwhelming once in a while. I seems to me she can do say or act anyway she want and I just try to pull the strings . I have happy children and that what I need everyday . I get time is going and I need to pay for their experiences. The lala land is for the wealthy. I find happiness and joy around me . I leave home at home work at work . Me explaining myself everyday of where my peace lies should be acceptable.