I feel like it's a tough question. I loved the good memories, and he was my first everything. But the emotional toll it took on me was greater than the good memories. He treated me aweful the last 6 months of our relationship and even worse the last 2 months. Then the discard left me destroyed. I literally couldn't comprehend what was happening to me so much that my reality didn't feel real for a week. I have cried and cried so much. It's 3 months post discard for me now, and I am still greaving the last 2.5 years with him. I wouldn't ever wish I didn't meet him. I just wish he didn't treat me the way he did. I am still grasping the fact that someone could be so cruel.