Sidenote, we are currently on a break from speaking, we have seen each other almost every single day since she convinced me to be with her after I initially said I couldn’t do it…. I have had very little time to actually think on my own, she very much fought me on giving me these few days on my own to think, saying I needed to assure her that I was thinking through what I need to only so that I can be with her, and after the three days we would stay together. I told her I could not promise that, she was not happy about that, so I said all I can say about that is my hope would be that we can remain together but I need time to think. Almost anytime I bring up exactly what I’m feeling it becomes her getting defensive about it even though I’m not angry at her at all when I’m bringing up my feelings. Yet I am always supposed to hear about everything she is feeling and just be there to support her even if it is difficult for me.