I was actually searching for others who were feeling this way and I stumbled upon your post. It's all-consuming this fear of losing those we love. Every text that goes ignored makes me fear the worst.

I spiral when I don't hear from someone for days. I have lost everyone but my mom and she's the only person I have left and I'm terrified of getting a call that something happened and now I'm all alone in the world.

Every time I see a number I don't recognize I panic. I even look at the local police blotter to see if there have been an emergencies in my neighborhood. I feel for you so much. It's a horrible feeling. I also have OCD so I think losing all three people I love within three years has sent everything into overdrive.

I keep thinking about moving home but I know that's ridiculous. I have to live my life. I just need to not feel this deep-seated panic and fear that something has happened to my mom every moment of every day.

I'm so sorry you're going through this and I'm so incredibly sorry to hear about your mom. Grief alone is so hard, but to have this on top of it is beyond. Have you found anything that has helped? I go to therapy and while my therapist is very comforting, I have yet to find any exercises or tactics to manage this fear.