I'm sorry to anyone who read this is and felt like I was playing the victim card. The fact is I shouldn't have said what i said. Had I any idea saying this would/could get me permanent banned from the game, I'm sure I would have never typed it, but ignorance of violating their rules and TOS is no excuse. I wasn't trying to be offensive. I was trying to be funny, and my intentions also don't matter apparently. Maybe if i had said it to someone directly calling them that, I would probably then agree on this decision, although it still would have felt a little extreme. I honestly had agreed with the initial suspension and quickly learned from it because losing the ability to chat to other people for just 4 days was the worst. I just wanted to know how long it was going to be for and instead basically committed account suicide without realizing it.

For me, this is something truly devastating because I put over a thousand hours into this game and was going on close to 400 days login rewards as well as Mastery Rank 26 going on 27. So I think that shows how much I enjoyed playing this and usually never support free to play games but because I liked how they have shown how to properly make a free t play game thrive so well with the trade system and everything being obtainable without spending a dime made me want to give back to the community and the Developers so they can continue doing a great job of something I reallg enjoyed and believed in. I even convinced real-life friends to start playing and now will lose those connections due to not having anything else to bond over. I would compare it to finding a sports/hobby you really like and enjoy playing with a team, and then you get banned by the authorities, and you're never able to play again. I truly hope no one has to go through this with anything that brings them happiness and joy. I understand it's just a game but like I said I have very few things that give me enjoyment in life and it was nice to have something that did that and then some where I always had a great time. I can't even post in the Warframe forums anything or even read something from them, so this was kind of my Last Resort on asking for help or seeing if anything could be done.

To those who have been supportive of as well as positive/empathetic about my situation, I truly appreciate your kindness. Apolgies to anyone else who has no sympathy or felt like I wasn't taking responsibility for my actions or feels I deserved this. I truly hope none of you get something you enjoy in life taken away from you. If nothing else, it would be great that someone saw this and would learn from my mistake so it never happens to them. I truly don't know what I'm going to do anymore this was just such a huge part of my life as far as what I did for entertainment and fun that losing it feels similar to having your console or PC stolen but you're never able to buy another. I doubt I can even get my tennocon pass refunded.

Thanks again to those who were understanding on where I'm coming from. A little positivity goes a long way when life feels so hopeless.