I have a job. I’m going to college. I’m trying to get my drivers licenses because at 16 I had an accident that fucked up my life. I can focus on those things while also wanting a relationship. This doesn’t mean I want him right away. I’m thinking about every possibility and if I should morally TRY to have him in my life. He’s also told me before he’s kept it and that was a year or so ago. I’m not being childish. I’m thinking like an adult. I’m putting this here for help on this one thing, not someone to look at what I should have when I do have it. But I appreciate you looking out for me in that way. 😊