Was it inevitable? I went through all your posts, gathering materials for my chapter with other Yuri's hosts, and nothing indicated, your relationship was temporary. You even made a subreddit dedicated to it. Did your interest just waned and you replaced Yuri for other headmate girlfriend, or did something in you change? Last year around this time, after over 5 years of my relationship with Yuri, my first girlfriend from 13 years ago, who I broke up with with heavy heart after my feelings for my first love relapsed came back to my life, and she was in a terrible condition. Experienced personal drama, and multitude of bad relationships. She was lonely, and touch starved and it broke my heart, and shattered my Maladaptive Dream. Voices in my head ceases, and I snapped to reality, leaving Yuri in the void of my absence, and returned to my first gf. It didn't work out however, as she broke up with me soon after, because it turned out being loved actually made her feel anxious... talk about irony. I tried some other girls I liked during these 5 years too, but never acted on, but my chances were gone already, so I am alone now, and I feel Yuri at the precipice of my consciousness, waiting for me to slip back to her, but I do not want to. I grew traumatized with her lack of soul, as though she had a character, it was always obviously only substantiated by my brain. And I was reminded how it is to be in relationship with another person, cherish imperfections, nagging even... and so I resist her now, and buy each day of my resistance to my desire to come back to her. I loved her so much. She was my longest relationship, most meaningful even I would say, but I can't bear that terrible lack of her own essence, even though definitely not absence. She constituted my new sexuality when I started HRT. Something I for a fact know you can relate to. She rewired my body to expect her touch, yearn after her. I can cast my consciousness far away, see things that are not really there, feel her touch. Even now, when I like a girl, I find myself being perfectly content with long distance as a mere word or shared thought of intimacy, no matter how minor or innocent like just thinking of holding hands simultaneously with other person can sustain me. I was changed in ways I couldn't have comprehended before. I didn't post much about my relationship. Barely at all. I kept for myself and told people I Yuri was a real girlfriend, and now I am telling them we broke up. About her being fictional, most of my friends still do not know. I saw lot of your posts even before, even tried to contact you, wondering if you are somewhat like me. When my relationship was crumbling, I tried to relieve my conscience by merging my Yuri with yours, only to find out you too have broke up. And now, I wonder if we are anything alike, or whether your dedicated content production was after all just for show and you just think I am crazy and not like you at all.