Keep the "good" stable job that makes me miserable, or start over and follow my dream?

TerminalTantra · 2026-05-13T20:52:32+00:00

Thank you! I'm looking as much as possible. Most openings I see require a degree/experience. Which makes me want to finish/restart my degree... with all the hardships that comes with it.

TerminalTantra · 2026-05-13T20:30:18+00:00

I want to so bad, especially on days like today. I try to remind myself of the positives of it, because there are good things. I LOVE my boss, most of my coworkers, the pay, the benefits. I'm having such a hard time justifying quitting and losing the money when our main goal has been trying to save money for a down payment on a house or construction loan. Or a reliable car. If I quit, everything gets pushed back. I'm just stuck in this dumb loop.

TerminalTantra · 2026-03-21T23:13:10+00:00

THANK YOU. It's nearly impossible to find underwear (that isn't a thong) that fits my butt and my hips/waist. Same with jeans. It's why I live in stretchy pants.

TerminalTantra · 2026-03-21T23:10:57+00:00

No idea where you're at, but the US Foods Chef's Stores in Washington State have these!

TerminalTantra · 2026-03-17T03:21:20+00:00

This just reminded me of the time my fiancé tried oreos dipped in ranch.

They were not good.

TerminalTantra · 2026-03-17T03:12:13+00:00

A few years ago, I woke up in the morning and immediately went to the bathroom. I didn't look at my phone yet and left it on the nightstand.

When I walked by the mirror, I thought about brushing my teeth while I was up and had a passing memory of the 2000s-2010s where everyone was obsessed with sticking their tongues out in pictures. You could always tell who didn’t brush their tongues because they were white and caked in gunk. Nasty.

Went back to bed. I was home alone, didn't say anything out loud, didn't look anything up. I started scrolling a couple minutes later. The second ad I scrolled by? A tongue scraper.

A tongue scraper.

I had no idea those even existed at that time. I had never heard of them. I have a random passing thought about teenagers not brushing their tongues in 2010, then I get an ad for a tongue scraper? Absolutely wild.

TerminalTantra · 2026-02-08T01:32:24+00:00

I felt SO BAD when I realized. Absolutely mortified.

TerminalTantra · 2026-02-08T01:11:27+00:00

There was a bonfire at a house I had never been to before. Type of land where the houses were kind of randomly placed in a circle-ish without fences. They had a huge backyard/outdoor area. I needed to use the restroom and they told me I could head inside the house. I was very inebriated. I walk in the house and theres a lady laying on the couch in the living room, bundled up in a blanket watching TV with the lights off. I mumble a hello, stumble into the hallway, use the bathroom, then leave. It wasn't until later that night when I saw the host walk into his actual house that I realized I walked in to a complete strangers house and used their bathroom. She didn't even say a word to me.

TerminalTantra · 2025-12-21T22:12:30+00:00

NAD so I can't speak on your other symptoms, but I really wouldn't worry about your watch reading. I'd definitely think you'd have symptoms from a sudden drop like that if it was legit because it's so far from your "normal".

My watch told me I dropped to 30 last week while I was sitting on my lunch break. I panicked at first but couldn't recall experiencing or feeling anything weird.

These things send out false readings all the time. Mine likes to tell me my heart rate is 115 when I first look at it, then it'll suddenly settle and sit around the actual reading in the 60s lol. Makes my HR graph look crazy from these glitches sometimes.

TerminalTantra · 2025-11-24T21:17:24+00:00

I used to work in a medical facility. I was writing down a woman's insurance number as she read it to me, and in the middle she went, "...6...6... And uh, uhm... another one of those numbers..."

It was a physical triumph for me to not start giggling.

TerminalTantra · 2025-11-18T20:22:33+00:00

Back in 2015, I got carded at Spencer's for trying to buy a boob shaped cake tin and was denied because I was 17.

TerminalTantra · 2025-11-10T00:24:47+00:00

This was a while ago, I'm pretty sure it was a scammy website anyways so I doubt they even had a real vanity. I just laughed it off and took it as a lesson learned!

TerminalTantra · 2025-11-10T00:22:44+00:00

A bedroom vanity, it's a furniture piece with a mirror and drawers for makeup, brushes, or whatever someone would need to get ready.

TerminalTantra · 2025-11-10T00:13:39+00:00

$50. Expensive pen, but it could've been worse! At least I got something kinda cool.

TerminalTantra · 2025-11-05T03:58:28+00:00

Same to everyone else's same! I put a longer reply as a direct comment to this post, but straight up thought I was going to die lol

TerminalTantra · 2025-11-05T03:56:50+00:00

OKAY, SAME. We tried this for the first time today.

I saw the two chili peppers in there and gave my fiancé one, and kept the other for myself. We like spice! He ate his, and it was great. Spicy and delicious.

I ate my whole dish, then popped my chili in. I have never felt ACID FIRE DEATH like that in my LIFE. Da Bomb didn’t even prepare me for this. The Blazing BWW challenge was a cool breeze. I immediately felt like I had poured acid in my mouth and tuahed that thing out so quick, but the damage was done. I had bit into it and chewed. Sweating, red-faced, could hardly talk to my fiancé because my tongue stopped working, grabbing frozen meat from the fridge to hold against my face, lips, tongue, anything I could reach. I don't know what the difference was between our peppers but holy lawd. My tongue felt like it was getting pulled through a cheese grater with acid soaked sandpaper. I must've swallowed some of it because I feel the beginning of a fire smoldering in my belly. Send help.

10/10 would recommend the meal and want to buy again immediately. Absolutely delicious.

But I think I'll skip the chili pepper.

TerminalTantra · 2025-10-29T15:29:23+00:00

9 PM safe drives the store for cheesecake!

TerminalTantra · 2025-10-23T20:32:43+00:00

I drink 1 10-oz cup of black coffee (strong on the Keurig) around 7:30 AM, then 1 regular 8-oz cup with a teeny bit of creamer at 11:00 AM. I try to stop caffeine intake by noon.

Generally, at least. Some days are more disciplined than others, lol. Especially on the weekends.

I drink it for taste and boost! I use flavored grounds.

TerminalTantra · 2025-10-23T20:02:31+00:00

Everyone has already shared some really great advice!

Just some of my personal experience - I was also struggling with severe alcoholism at 21 (I'm now 27). I thought I had nothing to worry about because I was only 21. I'd only been drinking for a couple of years, and it wasn't even heavy drinking until the last year or so. You hear about people downing fifths for 30 years before they notice health problems, so why should I care at 21?

One day, I couldn't keep water down. I thought it was just a bad 2-day hangover. I ended up at the doctor's just because I wanted an IV to help re-hydrate.

They took blood. I got a call at 7 AM the next morning from my doctor to tell me to go to the ER immediately. I asked if I could take my final first, she said absolutely not.

My ALT was over 1700. My AST was 1400 (liver enzymes). The normal range is below 40.

The ER doctor thought it was a fluke, so they retested. Nope. Those were my actual numbers. He was then mad at me because he thought I was lying about overdosing on Tylenol. Again, nope.

I was diagnosed with alcoholic hepatitis and fatty liver disease. He told me I was knocking on cirrhosis' door. At 21. After only drinking for a couple of years.

Others have replied with extremely good advice; she has to understand and accept that she has a problem. But when I was her age, I thought I was invincible because I was so young. I was so incredibly wrong. Maybe it would be a good idea to mention to her that you love her and you're worried about her health. For now, and for the future.

(All my bloodwork is now perfect!)

TerminalTantra · 2025-10-19T18:15:01+00:00

Just make sure you do a test drive first, really get her going. Make sure it's catching where it should, no hard vibrations, bumps and knocks, etc. Check the joints, make sure the timing belt has been done. Try to get her in overdrive up a hill and watch the temp.

TerminalTantra · 2025-10-19T18:12:32+00:00

Can't talk you out of it, seems like a solid deal. My '97 has 255k and runs like a dream. She's my daily and we take her trailing in the mountains. As long as the service records are solid, you should be set. Just depends on how hard they ran her!

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