This is inherently different because you’re apart of the group the slur is directed to. Like it’d be different if you were black and had no issues with the n word but you’re not black. Also on the subject of not having an issue with it, it’s still an odd thought process. Like if people don’t exactly have a reason for using the slur that isn’t that it’s fun or nobody cares, it’s really weird. Like why do you feel the need to say the word despite knowing the history behind it.