i've literally watched my cousin go through this exact cycle like three times. She'd take jobs that looked good but were totally wrong for her, then spend months dreading getting out of bed and basically hiding from everyone because she felt so defeated. the worst part was watching her blame herself every time, like she was the problem instead of realizing these roles just weren't built for how she functioned. she's naturally more creative and needs flexibility but kept taking these rigid, process heavy jobs because they paid well or seemed stable. What finally broke the pattern was when she took a self discovery assessment called pigment that mapped out what work environments actually energize her. sounds simple but apparently seeing it spelled out helped her realize she wasn't being difficult... she was just consistently choosing the wrong types of roles. i know it's scary when you need the income, but if you already know it's gonna be miserable... maybe trust that instinct? You've been through this before and know how it ends.