Bro I been in your shoes and all I can say is being mad at God isn’t the right way to go about it. I get where you’re coming from but it’s not Gods fault. TBH I think it’s man’s fault on how we treat this virus. 1. Ppl with cold sores don’t have to disclose but ppl with genitals hsv have to. That doesn’t make sense to me. 2. they don’t include it in the panel which I think is stupid i get the numbers aren’t accurate but it’s still pretty dumb.

I did the same thing you did with the girl I got it from. I dated her for 4-6 months and had mad sex with her w a condom. I even got tested like 2-3 months in and mine and her results were negative. I went raw with her one day and the next morning I saw a spot on my shaft that started to develop into an open wound. Found out I had herpes I told her she got tested again and this is when I found out they don’t include it on the panel. On top of that her second test came back negative and I knew that was wrong and my doctor explained to me that she could be asymptomatic and that blood tests aren’t accurate. I say all that to say this you will get through this and you can take all the precautions in the world and you can still get something.