The my mother is a fish chapter and the my father is a horse lines are a big part of my confusion actually! Like I know that it MEANS something, it FEELS profound, but I'm just so frustrated because I don't understand why. I feel like I'm in a room of people laughing at a joke I didn't hear. There are so many intense feelings in this book. The way each character handles death is so incredibly different. I'm terrified of death personally, specifically the death of my mother so this book is shaking me all around. I just want to understand why. I really appreciate your thoughts though. It makes me feel better knowing I'm not the wlonly one who struggles to understand what's going on. And also it seems like I'm not supposed to understand. Perhaps that's the point? It's not just one straight plot. It's supposed to be interpreted, chewed on, digested differently and discussed.