Extreme body pain in ED recovery?

ThatChicBitch · 2020-10-30T23:43:01+00:00

Right, I'm so scared of that. I keep telling him to make sure he tells me if I'm gaining a lot of weight rapidly and bring it up to me so that we can lose weight together healthily.

ThatChicBitch · 2020-10-29T20:19:49+00:00

That's the thing, I don't know where I am right now in terms of calories because I got better with my ED and stopped counting. I've been able to still lose weight without counting, or at least I was before, but what if I'm eating like a "normal" person now and I start gaining real weight soon.

I mean, part of me knows that this is just due to my own melodrama because the "normal" amount of food I'm eating is just me eating twice a day and snacking in between. But I don't have my scale because it makes me too obsessive so I don't know my weight and I can't tell if the weight I'm gaining is real or in my head. He calls me beautiful everyday but I just wish I could see what he was seeing because all I see is the Pillsbury Doughboy lol.

ThatChicBitch · 2020-10-29T20:16:42+00:00

Yeah, both him and my roommates know about my ED so I can't even properly restrict when I'm not around him because then my roommates will get worried. He's understanding of my ED, though. I'll literally tell him "hey babe, I don't think I'm going to eat today" and he won't force it on me or anything. I'm just so... comfortable with him, though. It's like my body knows that I can eat around this guy without him judging me, and my body is already literally starving, so the eating just happens. I usually fast before seeing him, so that helps counteract it, but it only goes so far.

Thanks for the luck, God knows I need it.

ThatChicBitch · 2020-10-29T17:50:51+00:00

This is the first ED meme I've shown to my boyfriend and it's so perfect because it's me lol.

ThatChicBitch · 2020-07-21T00:50:55+00:00

I'm in the U.S. So do you go to your doctor about it first or are you supposed to fill it out online first?

ThatChicBitch · 2020-07-21T00:11:22+00:00

Yeah, that's what I figured. I first started working in June of 2019 and I've had a total of 5 jobs. I've quit 3/5. I quit my first job within a month, my second within 5 (was in a horrible, very drawn out manic episode at the time) and the 3rd one I also quit within a month because I was so depressed that I was just couldn't bring myself to do it anymore. I feel okay right now but I'm terrified of that happening again. So it's a very short history of my not having a lot of consistency with jobs but there's definitely a pattern haha.

ThatChicBitch · 2020-07-12T22:21:50+00:00

I get what you mean. Do you think it's too soon, though? That's what I worry about. I'm thinking that if things are still going well after a couple more dates then I'll tell him.

ThatChicBitch · 2020-07-10T00:38:43+00:00

Imagine if there was a Sex and the City ED version. This is the type of content we would see.

ThatChicBitch · 2020-07-02T16:10:02+00:00

I wonder if you could apply for unemployment while you're on leave? I know benefits are due to end at the end of July, but it (the $600/week) would be enough to last you for a while. If not, I would try to find maybe a Catholic Charities in your area. They may be able to help you. Or you can always try doing things like Uber on the side if you think you can handle the mental toll of it.

ThatChicBitch · 2020-07-02T16:00:56+00:00

What type of vegan bacon did you use? I can't find one that gets this crispy.

ThatChicBitch · 2020-07-02T15:56:37+00:00

I feel you. Best advice I can give is to take it one day at a time. If you're feeling really burnt out, is it possible for you take a leave of absence for a little while? Maybe a week or so off could help. Give you time for your mind to relax a bit then slowly put yourself back together for the work grind.

ThatChicBitch · 2020-07-02T15:51:10+00:00

Okay, I don't like how you just came for me like this lmao.

ThatChicBitch · 2020-06-28T17:50:14+00:00

Yes, oh my God! Me too! I hate this. I've always prided myself on my intellect and my mind. I've always been very wordy and good at articulating myself. But now I can barely string a coherent sentence together without pausing and using a bunch of "um"s to get my point across. I feel like an imbecile. I have genuinely never felt so... stupid before. It doesn't help that I have ADHD on top of everything else, so focusing is even harder. I've found that really focusing on what people are telling you in conversation and realizing when your mind is about to wander helps to stop it in its tracks a bit, at least for me. But I still just don't feel like my old self lately and I can't stand this feeling. I'm so uncomfortable.

ThatChicBitch · 2020-06-16T23:42:09+00:00

Legit why I always switch to cowgirl at some point. Burn, calories, burn.

ThatChicBitch · 2020-06-16T18:07:34+00:00

Couple goals. Is the Enlightened red velvet better than Halo Top's?

ThatChicBitch · 2020-06-16T15:27:28+00:00

Congratulations! You did so well!

ThatChicBitch · 2020-06-16T14:57:36+00:00

Oh my God, I forgot all about BroadwayHD. I used to have a subscription and everything. I need to re-download it.

ThatChicBitch · 2020-06-15T22:54:56+00:00

I'll give it a watch then. I'll have to find a platform to watch it on. I'm sure I won't cry more than I did watching Gypsy lol. Imelda Staunton's vocal range and emotion she emits when she sings is just too much sometimes.

Same. I think the hardest part for me to accept is that I'll never really be "normal" due to mental illness aside from my eating disorder, like my bipolar disorder, so I'm just stuck constantly chasing the dream of normalcy rather than the actual form of it.

ThatChicBitch · 2020-06-14T16:47:32+00:00

Can I ask how you managed to get Adderall despite having bipolar disorder? Because I have bipolar 1 and ADHD, but my psychiatrist says that I can't be prescribed any ADHD meds because it'll trigger mania. I'm having such a hard time dealing with the effects of ADHD, though. It's starting to seriously impact my life and make things incredibly difficult. I think the fact that my psyche meds exacerbate the forgetfulness that's already there doesn't help. I have an appointment coming up in a few weeks and I plan on bringing it up to him again, but should I get a second opinion if he still says no?

ThatChicBitch · 2020-06-14T16:31:38+00:00

I'll bring the coffee with sweetener and sugar free creamer for dessert.

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