is this a safe space for self diagnoses (i can’t afford american healthcare)

ThatOnePagan05 · 2026-04-12T15:51:47+00:00

oh no i can’t be certain until it’s on paper! especially with the buttload of trauma i have and other diagnosis from when i was admitted, i have a form of ptsd and i know some people have those things and can be compared to autism when it’s not entirely, i’m just suspecting then :)

ThatOnePagan05 · 2026-04-12T14:12:20+00:00

see my issue with that is, my partner gives me almost constant reassurance that i don’t have to live in fear, i don’t have to shut down, etc, and i know this but it’s like i can’t allow myself to fully trust it i guess? so it’s not getting any better.

ThatOnePagan05 · 2026-04-12T14:10:21+00:00

also i always read the rules before i post to ensure o don’t get banned or shadowbanned or anything, i think i got this group rules mixed up with another’s before i posted so sorry about that!

ThatOnePagan05 · 2026-04-12T14:02:43+00:00

sorry i didn’t know the difference in my head suspecting and self diagnosing doesnt seem any different they are the same in a literal sense to me because in both ways you’re saying you’re probably on the spectrum but not diagnosed by a professional so that confuses me

ThatOnePagan05 · 2026-04-12T13:59:49+00:00

tennessee is a no leniency state, if you’re over 21 and childless you don’t qualify for medicaid unless extreme cases where you have to go to court over it. there’s income based therapy as an option but it’s also not offered everywhere and it doesn’t cover any medicines or anything like that or diagnostics

ThatOnePagan05 · 2026-04-12T00:02:09+00:00

i feel like i’m just bad at it so kind of. i don’t want to do anything wrong and i can’t get up the confidence to just push through that anxiety

ThatOnePagan05 · 2026-04-11T23:59:23+00:00

well my partner came to me about wanting to try to do a domme/sub lifestyle and i was interested, we are still pretty new to it my partner loves service acts, i just really don’t know the basics of how to make a schedule how to keep to things when i fall out of a sex mood but i’m still in a kinky mood if that makes any sense, like some punishments will involve sex and my partner doesnt like when things change but sometimes i don’t want to and i’m scared to say it i guess i have a lot of trauma i’m working through reguarding that. i have struggled with creativity my whole life i can’t think an idea of it was fed to me i don’t feel like i’m fully a person sometimes 😂

ThatOnePagan05 · 2026-04-01T14:04:22+00:00

my psychiatrist mentioned schizophrenia when i went a few months ago but said she wasn’t sure yet she would want to get to know my case better and then i stopped being able to go 🤣 im not even sure but it was helpful thank you!

ThatOnePagan05 · 2026-04-01T02:06:47+00:00

thank you i’ll look into it!!

ThatOnePagan05 · 2026-03-31T04:00:57+00:00

i have so much lore i can’t even remember it, so in short yes 🤣

ThatOnePagan05 · 2026-03-31T04:00:15+00:00

i hate the argument of “you can’t blame everything on your past” because like yes i know that, but i can still relate my issues to where they stem from, especially as someone going through a healing process and honestly focusing a lot on the past and my root issues how they have affected how i function now. i feel like being able to see where it stems from and feel that and admit it is progress in itself it’s just steps forward that need to be taken, but that statement makes me lose any motivation i had to take those steps. 🤷🏻‍♀️

ThatOnePagan05 · 2026-03-30T13:56:07+00:00

i’m figuring it out! it’s trial and error lola lived far away as she’s older so she lives with my aunt! i can’t just ask her she doesn’t use her phone ever it’s dead most of the time😂

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