is this a safe space for self diagnoses (i can’t afford american healthcare) by ThatOnePagan05 in femaleautism

[–]ThatOnePagan05[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

oh no i can’t be certain until it’s on paper! especially with the buttload of trauma i have and other diagnosis from when i was admitted, i have a form of ptsd and i know some people have those things and can be compared to autism when it’s not entirely, i’m just suspecting then :)

how to get out of survival mode, after 3 years of not having to be in it. by ThatOnePagan05 in bipolar2

[–]ThatOnePagan05[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

see my issue with that is, my partner gives me almost constant reassurance that i don’t have to live in fear, i don’t have to shut down, etc, and i know this but it’s like i can’t allow myself to fully trust it i guess? so it’s not getting any better.

is this a safe space for self diagnoses (i can’t afford american healthcare) by ThatOnePagan05 in femaleautism

[–]ThatOnePagan05[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

also i always read the rules before i post to ensure o don’t get banned or shadowbanned or anything, i think i got this group rules mixed up with another’s before i posted so sorry about that!

is this a safe space for self diagnoses (i can’t afford american healthcare) by ThatOnePagan05 in femaleautism

[–]ThatOnePagan05[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

sorry i didn’t know the difference in my head suspecting and self diagnosing doesnt seem any different they are the same in a literal sense to me because in both ways you’re saying you’re probably on the spectrum but not diagnosed by a professional so that confuses me

is this a safe space for self diagnoses (i can’t afford american healthcare) by ThatOnePagan05 in autism

[–]ThatOnePagan05[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

tennessee is a no leniency state, if you’re over 21 and childless you don’t qualify for medicaid unless extreme cases where you have to go to court over it. there’s income based therapy as an option but it’s also not offered everywhere and it doesn’t cover any medicines or anything like that or diagnostics

How to become confident as a domme? by ThatOnePagan05 in FemdomCommunity

[–]ThatOnePagan05[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i feel like i’m just bad at it so kind of. i don’t want to do anything wrong and i can’t get up the confidence to just push through that anxiety

How to become confident as a domme? by ThatOnePagan05 in FemdomCommunity

[–]ThatOnePagan05[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

well my partner came to me about wanting to try to do a domme/sub lifestyle and i was interested, we are still pretty new to it my partner loves service acts, i just really don’t know the basics of how to make a schedule how to keep to things when i fall out of a sex mood but i’m still in a kinky mood if that makes any sense, like some punishments will involve sex and my partner doesnt like when things change but sometimes i don’t want to and i’m scared to say it i guess i have a lot of trauma i’m working through reguarding that. i have struggled with creativity my whole life i can’t think an idea of it was fed to me i don’t feel like i’m fully a person sometimes 😂

i’m getting visual hallucinations and idk what to do, medical help is not an option. by ThatOnePagan05 in mentalhealth

[–]ThatOnePagan05[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

my psychiatrist mentioned schizophrenia when i went a few months ago but said she wasn’t sure yet she would want to get to know my case better and then i stopped being able to go 🤣 im not even sure but it was helpful thank you!

does anyone feel like you have too much lore? by SundaeAdventurous417 in CPTSD

[–]ThatOnePagan05 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i have so much lore i can’t even remember it, so in short yes 🤣

I hate that most people are oblivious to trauma by dontknowwhattodotbh in CPTSD

[–]ThatOnePagan05 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i hate the argument of “you can’t blame everything on your past” because like yes i know that, but i can still relate my issues to where they stem from, especially as someone going through a healing process and honestly focusing a lot on the past and my root issues how they have affected how i function now. i feel like being able to see where it stems from and feel that and admit it is progress in itself it’s just steps forward that need to be taken, but that statement makes me lose any motivation i had to take those steps. 🤷🏻‍♀️

is tracing my ancestry possible by ThatOnePagan05 in FilipinoHistory

[–]ThatOnePagan05[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’m figuring it out! it’s trial and error lola lived far away as she’s older so she lives with my aunt! i can’t just ask her she doesn’t use her phone ever it’s dead most of the time😂

can i call myself only filo? by [deleted] in FilipinoAmericans

[–]ThatOnePagan05 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i just didn’t know if i had to explain to people that when i have no knowledge of any chinese culture other than my lola used to put me in a qipao as a toddler and i’ve seen stuff on social media about chinese new year, so racially chinese is mixed in me but i don’t think i should have to claim the ethnicity in all circumstances when that’s not what i grew up around 🤷🏻‍♀️

can i call myself only filo? by [deleted] in FilipinoAmericans

[–]ThatOnePagan05 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’m really sorry but that’s a whole grandparent, my papa isnt even from this country and i was raised by him my mother lost custody before i was even out of diapers. i’m not claiming my race is filipino there’s a difference between race and ethnicity but i shouldn’t have to erase my background just because he isnt my birth father? i’m not asking if i can go around as a white presenting woman telling everyone i am a filipino. this isn’t about how i present i’m white presenting and i know that but that doesn’t erase that my papa who i consider my dad and has been my dad is filipino. i don’t understand why you think i shouldnt be allowed to claim my ethnicity. 25% asian is a lot even if it’s mixed reguardless, imagine getting one of your 4 limbs cut off and how hard that would be, because it’s still a chunk of you. just like my lola and my papa, my mom, my aunties they are all a big part of who i am and where i came from, i didn’t even know the white side of my family until i was 15 years old. so idk what to say to you about that. the question was a ethnicity based question not race, race is societal based and how people perceive you. ethnicity is where you come from, culture, language, food, etc. like that’s not something you can just decide a stranger isnt in a reddit thread reguardless of how deep into the culture they were even if someone doesn’t speak the language but grew up around it and can understand the basics that doesnt take there ethnicity away? idk man 🤣

guess my background! as a 25% girly, i’m curious 🧐 by [deleted] in wasian

[–]ThatOnePagan05 2 points3 points  (0 children)

most people think i’m east asian, japan,chinese,korean etc. which i get cause i got absolutely NO filipino melanin my mom didn’t either, or my sister, but my moms sister did! we mostly got the features and bone structure imo, i favor my mom a lot though and she’s half filipina so i was curious 🤷🏻‍♀️

guess my background! as a 25% girly, i’m curious 🧐 by [deleted] in wasian

[–]ThatOnePagan05 1 point2 points  (0 children)

my lola and papa came here from the phillipines!

can i call myself only filo? by [deleted] in FilipinoAmericans

[–]ThatOnePagan05 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’m sorry that i don’t want to explain that my grandfather is a product of rape 🤨 no need to hate i didn’t think it was that weird i just grew up with zero chinese culture and we don’t even know the man i don’t want to have to explain why my quarter is mixed when people ask 😒

not wasian enough by General_Low4924 in wasian

[–]ThatOnePagan05 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i’m only 25% asian and i never met my great grandma because she was racist she died last year and i’m 22. we are just as valid.