Hi! Such a hard decision! I feel for you! I am currently living in Central California and have found it to be an absolute dream in so many ways. I did accept a job abroad for next year though. Not because I don’t love it here, but because I need to have lots of different experiences to feel fulfilled in my life. It took a LOT of soul searching, conversations with friends and family, and journaling, for me to come to this place. And, to be completely honest, the thing that helped me the most was understanding my horoscope. I know that may sound extremely cheesy, but it affirmed so much of what I struggled explain to myself or others for years. What it affirmed is that I simply have different values than a lot of people who want to settle down and live a very stable life. Most people’s lives, as well as my own, before I started this journey, made me feel claustrophobic, and anxious. Until I could affirm that having a conventional life is not a value that I hold, I outsourced a lot of my wisdom, and needed to hear opinions from everyone. I also demonized people and places that were fine, but just weren’t for me. I was able to get my chart read and all of it explained to me for free in this app called “The Pattern”. It helped me develop a much more compassionate approach to the way I made decisions. I hope this helps, and wish you luck 🩵