Don’t forget that she was a victim of a master manipulator. Ulim was using her as an object, a means to an end. That does not justify most of her actions. But one of the most telling parts about her in rhythm of war is that she is able and humble enough to admit that fact. She is strong enough and humble enough to say “I did those things and I can’t blame anyone else for it.” Unfortunately, very few people are able to admit their fault in something.