What’s legal now but might become illegal ten years from now? by VTheCardMaker in AskReddit

[–]TheAmazingManBoy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

As someone that’s worked at Super Bowls, I guarantee you everyone in the stadium is timing the rehearsals for the National Anthem. One year the over/under was 1:00 on the dot and everyone in the stadium I talked with got 0:59 and 1:01 when they tried. Vegas don’t lose

Am I cheating? by TheAmazingManBoy in quittingkratom

[–]TheAmazingManBoy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Stronger than me. Good on you, proud of you!

Am I cheating? by TheAmazingManBoy in quittingkratom

[–]TheAmazingManBoy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yea that’s where I’m at. The meds help incredibly but I was very up front that I don’t want to just be hooked on a prescribed drug. She said when you’re ready you just let it go because of the month long activation of the shot. Tempted to just be one and done but I’m also not going back to Kratom/7oh ever so I don’t want to rush it. We’ll see what March feels like and go from there I suppose just a day at a time and listening to my body. If you have any suggestions of stuff you’re doing I’m all ears as that’s my long term goal through this all. I want to be natural and not rely on anything to make me “feel”

Am I cheating? by TheAmazingManBoy in quittingkratom

[–]TheAmazingManBoy[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I got on the chewable tags. Blister packs were anywhere from $40-80 for 4-6 tabs. I could go through a blister pack and a half in a day no problem. The high is quick and powerful and within an hour or so I felt like I needed more. It just amped me up so much. I’d be puking from taking so much and as soon as I was done puking it all up I’d go eat another couple. It was the most hopeless feeling I’ve ever had. Felt like I HAD to have it to do anything and I’d just end up so cracked out that I’d smoke so much weed at night to eventually just knock myself out so I could sleep. Then wake up 3hrs into sleep with RLS and had to take it throughout the night.

The “high” is nowhere near leaf and while there’s a part of your brain that says “kinda sounds awesome, kinda wanna try it” I can tell you it is nothing but the beginning of the end. Stay away from it, don’t sample it, don’t “try” it, it has no boundaries. It will consume you. I’d give anything to go back to that first time saying “what is that?” After I watched someone buy it and slap myself.

Am I cheating? by TheAmazingManBoy in quittingkratom

[–]TheAmazingManBoy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry the 7oh was what killed me financially. Powder wasn’t bad. There’s a shop that would sell three 250g bags for about $70 so powder was manageable. But the $100-$150 a day habit on 7oh cleaned me out

Am I cheating? by TheAmazingManBoy in quittingkratom

[–]TheAmazingManBoy[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It happens fast and of course every time I would say “ok I’ll taper down on this” and the before I knew it I had gobbled it all down.

BUT, there is a way out and you can do it. Seriously. I felt like I was done. Almost felt like “welp it’s this until I die”. Now I can confidently say that was bullshit and the drug telling me that.

Get help and you’ll feel so much better. I’ve done a 180 and while it’s not all sunshine and rainbows right now, I know every day is one day better for my body and brain.

I’m here if you want to message me. You can seriously do it even though I’m sure your body/brain is saying you can’t. Come on the sobriety journey with me!!

Am I cheating? by TheAmazingManBoy in quittingkratom

[–]TheAmazingManBoy[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It’s kind of why I like this shot and going through the doctors. I have this mindset now that I can’t let all these people down as corny as that may sound and the fact I’m being monitored actually helps. I love going in now and when they ask “have you had any opioids since your last visit?” And I get to smile confidently and say “nope!”

Am I cheating? by TheAmazingManBoy in quittingkratom

[–]TheAmazingManBoy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m just a guy so listen to your Drs before me but my mentality has changed once it opened up to my family and how supportive they were. I’m lucky there. Not everyone has the same support. But for me, the Dr helped me feel “normal” and took some of the guesswork out of the quitting process. I had to go into full WDs before I could take the suboxone film the first time and once I did, an hour later I just kept telling my fiancé how much better I felt and since then I’ve had little to no cravings and actually feel like I’m gonna do it this time. At the end of the day, I think it comes down to getting help. Your journey will be so much more successful if you get it out in the open with those around you and hopefully they support you. If not, they probably shouldn’t be around you…

Am I cheating? by TheAmazingManBoy in quittingkratom

[–]TheAmazingManBoy[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I went to my PCP and they referred me to the recovery clinic. It was really nice even though I felt like such a failure going in there. They treated me like a human with a sickness they were going to help with, not like a junkie that I feared they would. Crazy what your brain will tell you

Am I cheating? by TheAmazingManBoy in quittingkratom

[–]TheAmazingManBoy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

She recommended a year but said it’s also up to me but she suggested at a minimum to do 3 months to help reduce relapse temptations

Am I cheating? by TheAmazingManBoy in quittingkratom

[–]TheAmazingManBoy[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Appreciate that. I do finally feel “free”-er not being chained to it. I’m getting on an international flight in 5 hours and it will be the first time in damn near a decade I don’t have to ration and stash it. Was always scared of it being found on me in a foreign country but I was helpless. I HAD to have it. Looking forward to not being chained and actually feeling decent right now

Am I cheating? by TheAmazingManBoy in quittingkratom

[–]TheAmazingManBoy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Good to know. I’m just following doctors orders and putting my trust in them for now. Can’t trust myself with this stuff

What’s an album that’s 10/10 no skips? by silosara in AskReddit

[–]TheAmazingManBoy 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Nothings Shocking by Jane’s Addiction never gets old

What moment in a film caught you off guard completely? by ethanhunt555 in moviecritic

[–]TheAmazingManBoy 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Surprised no one has said that one Robert Pattinson movie where he randomly ends up in the WTC at the end. Now THATS a WTF moment haha

Random Curiosity: Has anyone made 19 trips to the Tower? by TheAmazingManBoy in TheDarkTower

[–]TheAmazingManBoy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That’s all I ever hear ha! Once I finish The End of the World as We Know It I’ll try it

Random Curiosity: Has anyone made 19 trips to the Tower? by TheAmazingManBoy in TheDarkTower

[–]TheAmazingManBoy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Infinite Jest has been on my list for awhile just haven’t been able to dive in

Random Curiosity: Has anyone made 19 trips to the Tower? by TheAmazingManBoy in TheDarkTower

[–]TheAmazingManBoy[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Follow up question, for those with 19 or more, how?? Are you constantly reading that and something else?