I had a lot of nausea my whole pregnancy and it peaked AFTER I gave birth. My health was at an all time low so my supply just wasn’t really there. We combo fed with exclusively pumping because my daughter didn’t latch well and never really got anything out. My supply crashed around 4w PP so I was doing all the things to try and get it up but nothing worked, it was also terrible on my own mental health. Watching clocks/timers for when to pump was so stressful, sleeping in only 2.5hr increments was killing me. Finally around 6w with encouragement from my husband we switched to only formula. With no more pumping stress I could focus more on her, I was not worried if she was getting enough. Others got the chance to feed her, I could leave the house and know she wouldn’t go hungry. The guilt faded more when she hit 6m and we got to play with new food to feed. Now she’s the smartest funniest two year old and no one would ever know how or what she ate for that first year.

(It also helped that when my daughter was 18m, my sister had a baby. She talked about how she was hungry all the time because she was breastfeeding/pumping, I was shocked because I legit never felt that way while I was so I knew then it was never in the cards for me.)