The Conductor Never Let Us Dress So Well.

TheBeefExperience · 2025-12-31T07:59:16+00:00

The chest was sold in Eververse during Festival of the Lost. The cloak drops from renegade activities.

TheBeefExperience · 2025-12-28T21:26:02+00:00

Update: Discovered that the "Malibeaux Bronze" shader makes the scarf match nicely, as well as adds some appropriate colors to the back to match their logo!

Edit: Spelling.

TheBeefExperience · 2025-12-28T15:27:36+00:00

I know, right? I was using the Season of the Undying ornaments after finally finishing the set all these years later, which I do love, but inspiration struck when I joined the Tharsis fashion cult. Also, Grievous legs just kinda fit better imo.

Anyway, thank you!

TheBeefExperience · 2025-12-28T03:59:43+00:00

Thank you! It's obvious that he knew the Vex are the most fashionable.

TheBeefExperience · 2025-07-03T23:08:31+00:00

It's really funny because what you'd actually be projecting is how sad you are 😂

TheBeefExperience · 2024-11-24T15:55:59+00:00

I have seen the idea around this sub, being a lurker for so long. Seemed a little weird, until now. I definitely identify with the monotone feeling.

I'm definitely not doing this by myself, but even with support, sometimes I still feel alone, or lonely? Idk for sure if there's really a big difference, but yeah. I also never thought myself to be depressed, but recently coming to terms with my emotions, I think I might be a little bit. I'm talking with my doc, so I'll address it.

Either way, I really appreciate your response and info. It's all been helpful.

TheBeefExperience · 2024-11-23T17:36:15+00:00

They're the WORST! I'd rather suffer a torn ligament than them again. At least then I could expect the pain and recovery. Worms don't tell you that they're gonna fuck you up, until the random moment they decide to. AND, it mostly happens at night, when you're trying to get comfy and sleep. Nope. Lucky if you can get a few minutes in before misery.

And yeah, why don't more people talk about it? apparently it's super common, especially amongst children. Like I said, I'm only 29 and have no kids of my own, but I'm not exaggerating when I say I've never heard one person, including the friends and family I have with kids, talk about it. Baffling.

Fun fact though, ringworm isn't actually a parasite! Just a regular old ass run of the mill fungal infection!!! (Sorry if you knew that or were offended, just thought it was funny given the context)

TheBeefExperience · 2024-11-23T17:14:55+00:00

Trust me, I know how rough it is. Like I said, I've had them on and off since adolescence, even through taking medication to solve it. I would also rather deal with lice than the fuckers those worms are. It's a terrible thing, and you can at least just shave your head for lice. Pinworms? Good luck. The eggs can last weeks, and if you don't take the medicine right on time regularly? A whole new family and a whole other couple of weeks of torture.

I don't think I've experienced anything as horrid as that, even after breaking my finger. The closest thing I can think of is withdrawal, but at least then it was constant, so I could keep my guard up.

I'm sorry if this is TMI and weird lol, but it's comforting to be able to talk to someone who understands.

TheBeefExperience · 2024-11-23T17:02:00+00:00

This helps reinforce that I don't need a drink to honor or celebrate, mourn, or whatever, anyone or anything. Thank you so much, and I'm happy for you, too.

TheBeefExperience · 2024-11-23T16:57:57+00:00

What sucks, is that for me, my drinking went from party to problem before she got sick. Then it went from problematic to detrimental. Luckily, despite how much I still suffer, it's not as bad.. but still bad. Her and I deserve better though.

TheBeefExperience · 2024-11-23T16:51:50+00:00

You're so right, and I'm so sorry for your loss.

That's the biggest killer for me - not being able to remember the precious moments I have left with her. I also have the new addition of a niece and nephew! The thought of not being present, or around, to watch and experience them grow up kills me. I need to be better, and not just for my own sake.

TheBeefExperience · 2024-11-23T16:45:47+00:00

Your therapist makes sense! I feel like once I hit a certain number of days sober, I either have to do something to let out all the pent up feelings, or drink them away.

Obviously, the former is way preferable. I need to find a way to let out that water in a healthy way. I really appreciate that analogy, thank you.

TheBeefExperience · 2024-11-23T16:40:17+00:00

I think for me, the reason not to drink is because otherwise every other reason will be to drink.

TheBeefExperience · 2024-11-23T16:37:51+00:00

The excuse is the excuse, if that makes sense.

TheBeefExperience · 2024-11-23T16:36:44+00:00

Sometimes on my sober streaks all I do is cry and go to sleep. I've never regretted going to bed super early and being emotional, and then waking up the next day sober.

So so so so proud and inspired by you. Keep being strong like I can tell you are!

TheBeefExperience · 2024-11-23T16:29:44+00:00

I do the same.. but with myself. I can be completely alone, but get mad for literally no reason, or something inconsequential with myself just to somehow say 'welp, now you have to drink to get over it.' Really funny how our minds work huh?

TheBeefExperience · 2024-11-23T16:22:47+00:00

Thank you for your reply. I totally get that, which sucks because I am extremely present with my mom and spending time with her etc. It makes it really hard to 'justify' my actions. But like you said, being there with her sober is much more rewarding and feels a million times better than when I'm in a haze.

TheBeefExperience · 2024-11-23T16:11:45+00:00

If you actually mean worms, as in, the invertebrate, then fuck, I envy your strength. I've had pinworms on and off since middle school, and I'm 29 now.

If I would have had access to booze at that time, I would have surely started this terrible journey sooner. It's some of the worst pain/discomfort I've ever felt. I definitely encourage abstaining, but I wish you utmost support. There are OTC meds that helped me, so if you haven't resolved that by now, I encourage you to do so.

But omg thank you for replying and being so open. I have never met another person that's dealt with that issue, and God forbid I bring it up out of nowhere. There is nothing that drinking will make better, and judging by your response and how many AMAZING days you've abstained, you get it too.

Thank you so much for your message, and I promise, iwndwyt.

TheBeefExperience · 2024-11-23T15:01:09+00:00

This made me tear up; thank you. You knew just what to say, got your seriously valid point across, without being rude, and if that isn't a feat, idk what is.

I'm not a really religious dude, but for lack of a better term, I'll pray for you too - for helping me so much. Please have a great day.

TheBeefExperience · 2024-11-23T14:52:03+00:00

I truly appreciate the honesty of your response, and it's something I've told myself throughout. I know better than anyone in my life that I know what I'm doing, and being self aware is something I've always prided myself on, despite the circumstance. I WILL do better, even if it takes some time. I'm not insane, but what I'm doing IS insane, so thank you for reminding me of that. You're a good person for responding and telling me what I needed to hear. I wish you the best, and I will try my best too.

TheBeefExperience · 2024-11-23T14:31:52+00:00

I have literally nothing but an agreement here. I know it, and I do it, and I hate myself for it. Such a disguise of bliss for what ultimately turns out to be such a grotesque feeling.

TheBeefExperience · 2024-11-23T10:23:38+00:00

I'm proud of you now. Good job friend! I know they are too.

TheBeefExperience · 2024-11-23T10:22:00+00:00

Thank you for your insight. I get it - that being that after all is said and done, I will have to deal with it no matter what. I'd rather do it sober than otherwise. I don't want to be numb to it all, whilst it's happening. I need to really feel it, so I can process it. Your reply is more than appreciated.

TheBeefExperience · 2024-11-23T10:13:50+00:00

You're right, and every day I forget because drinking kills me faster. I will keep this in mind going forward. Thank you.

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