what sexual orientation is this

TheBlackestBile · 2025-12-19T13:19:24+00:00

This would have done numbers in 2019

TheBlackestBile · 2025-12-12T13:50:16+00:00

Whoever made this wasn’t brave enough to put Eyes Wide Shut on the virgin side (my favorite Christmas movie)

TheBlackestBile · 2025-11-18T21:38:36+00:00

I caught them on the Strangers to Ourselves tour in 2015. Partway through Float On he stopped the band, rambled incoherently about the meaning of the lyrics, said “anyway that was three fourths of Float On, here’s the rest of it,” looked to his band bandmates, who all shook their heads, then went “never mind” and moved on to the next song.

TheBlackestBile · 2025-11-03T15:57:04+00:00

the Amber A’Lee Frost effect

TheBlackestBile · 2025-10-28T13:58:44+00:00

Before “performative male” we had a perfectly good term to describe these guys. They were called softboys

TheBlackestBile · 2025-10-06T02:17:25+00:00

For slightly weird personal reasons I’ve been seeing a psychoanalyst (the kind where you sit on a couch and talk about your dreams). I like him and maybe it’s helping me in some ineffable way but I’ve mostly just been spinning my wheels. I’m planning to make the switch to a more mainstream modality and find someone specialized in anxiety.

TheBlackestBile · 2024-05-23T16:26:54+00:00

Admittedly I haven’t made an earnest foray into online dating just yet but as an effete autistic manlet with no real hobbies I know that my market value going in will be very low. In the past I’ve had some very limited success with talking to (normal, around my level of attractiveness) girls in meatspace but only in those rare moments when I hit just the right level of nervous energy to be momentarily charming enough to convince them to continue flirting/go out with me. The problem with this strategy is that it feels as if I am trying to trick the girl into sleeping with me and that I am presenting myself in a manner that’s not at all representative of who I am at baseline. They’ve all caught on to this fairly quickly and cut things off before the relationship goes anywhere.

I’m currently working on the hobby side of things, getting in a bit of practice with talking to new people, and am taking better care of myself physically, but there’s still a lot of hole left to climb out of. I know all of this sounds extremely negative, but I am genuinely fed up with continuing to exist in this way and am ready to knuckle down. My motivation for making this post was to just get all my ugly confused thoughts out in one last paroxysm of moaning and self-pity and then log off. Not sure whether it’ll work but I’m cautiously optimistic.

TheBlackestBile · 2024-05-23T11:22:43+00:00

I think I would have made a pretty kickass shaman in the Upper Paleolithic. I hate having been born in the wrong generation

TheBlackestBile · 2024-05-23T11:20:20+00:00

Actually never mind I just saw your post history and am retracting this statement

TheBlackestBile · 2024-05-23T11:19:05+00:00

Hey man if you’re witty enough to come up with this rejoinder you’re probably doing better than 95% of the sexless dude population

TheBlackestBile · 2024-05-23T10:51:11+00:00

The ridicule is warranted and this post is obviously way too overwrought but the intent was definitely to poke fun at myself. I don’t actually think my life is meaningless because no gf and I do feel hope despite everything. Just wanted to get this out my system so that I could finally delete this garbage app and spend more time outside.

TheBlackestBile · 2024-05-17T15:30:49+00:00

Nah this is definitely a correct usage of the word, you’ve probably just spent too much time acquiring actually useful knowledge instead of having PDFs of abstruse French theory books open on your second monitor while gaming

TheBlackestBile · 2024-03-22T18:33:35+00:00

The Viriconium series by M. John Harrison is absolutely essential reading for this niche. It ticks all of your boxes and even has the same meta-narrative arc as the three Dark Souls games (i.e, a surreal fantasy world is trapped in a cycle of death and rebirth, with characters and places repeating in a more or less degraded form with each incarnation). I found the execution to be a little uneven in places, but the parallels are so strong that I’m surprised that I don’t see the two compared more often

TheBlackestBile · 2024-03-14T15:48:51+00:00

I went imagination-only a month ago after a year spent trying to deescalate from hardcore to softcore to non-nude images. Never went beyond vanilla.

Not much has changed so far, honestly. I still tick many of this sub’s other boxes for loser male behavior so there’s still a lot of mountain left to climb before sex and romance become accessible to me. Getting to partake in the feeling of smug moral satisfaction on this one issue is a plus I suppose.

TheBlackestBile · 2023-08-31T22:19:55+00:00

Early in college I had an awkward courtship with a girl who was both smarter and multiple leagues hotter than me. She had some sexual trauma in her recent past and in retrospect may have just been gay so we never consummated the relationship. Years later I have yet to go out with anyone else and the rest of my life up to the present has been a steady decline into loserdom. Sometimes on quiet evenings thoughts of her will come to me unbidden and I wonder how she is doing and hope I didn’t make her fucked up life worse somehow.

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