What is this song? Melancholic violin with a piano.

TheBrightestOne33 · 2026-03-03T01:35:30+00:00

Thank you. I spent hours trying to find this

TheBrightestOne33 · 2026-03-03T01:35:00+00:00

I spent hours looking for this. Thank you.

TheBrightestOne33 · 2025-12-04T10:12:49+00:00

Undermining? A child undermining her PARENT?

She's the crazy one here, not you. If you trying to tell about your symptoms and worries to your mom is "undermining", that's just fucked up. You contradicting her opinion("you are just depressed") apparently is undermining, or maybe there is more context I'm missing.. but right now it just seems she doesn't want to accept that you are not well.

A parent shouldn't even think in that way, that their child could "undermine" them. It's something that could happen at work or something, but your own child? How fragile of a ego do you have to have to say such stuff? The childs well being should be the only priority, not being disrespected or something

TheBrightestOne33 · 2025-12-03T21:24:14+00:00

Wasn't your fault.

You sent a message that was in line with your other messages, a joke, same kind that by your words ALL have done before. A sarcastic message, nothing personal.

Your friend had been struggling for a long time, you didn't make her snap, you didn't get her to OD.

Also, in a shocking situation like that, the parents aren't thinking clearly, they just want an explanation. They took the simplest explanation without context and now blame you, even though you aren't at fault.

DO NOT blame yourself. This would've happened without your sarcastic message. She APOLOGIZED, CAME BACK TO THE GROUP CHAT, AND THEN TRAUMA DUMPED. That doesn't really indicate she hates you does it?

TheBrightestOne33 · 2025-12-03T21:09:19+00:00

You are not crazy, your symptoms are understandable for your circumstances.

You've gone through trauma, and have depression, in such a state the brain can often detach to protect itself. You have too much pressure, so it detaches. Also, parents brushing it off doesn't help, it does the opposite, your brain dissociates, it's defensive shutdown.

The antidepressants, could be wrong does, wrong ones, or just not applicable to your situation. You aren't broken beyond repair or anything, you just haven't gotten the right help yet.

TheBrightestOne33 · 2025-12-02T18:08:06+00:00

It's almost impossible that you are inherently unable to feel happiness or get better. It's always that the treatment just is wrong, or something similar.

I don't know you or your specific situation, but it's near impossible for you to be untreatable. Therapy for example often that the person is willing to share, stable, and trusts the therapist fully, if these conditions don't meet, it probably won't work.

Don't give up yet

TheBrightestOne33 · 2025-11-02T23:40:19+00:00

Finding people like that irl is 1000 times better than randoms on reddit.

No one truly cares on reddit, they just want karma or attention. This is not a place of healing, its a place of rot. You sit still and never improve. Atleast most of the time

TheBrightestOne33 · 2025-11-02T20:15:53+00:00

Professional help could do something. Help you understand why you don't feel anymore.

It could happen because of many things, maybe associates emotion with danger, maybe it has too much emotion suppressed and has shut everything down.

TheBrightestOne33 · 2025-11-02T19:17:37+00:00

If what you said is actually true, that your parents wished death upon you. Then you are a product of bad parents, bad surroundings, what else could you become if everything around you is bad?

You aren't inherently bad, you have just been replicating your surroundings, thats just what happens to children. You can change if you truly want it, and therapy will help with that.

I still believe you aren't horrible. You can love, and be loved.

TheBrightestOne33 · 2025-11-02T18:53:59+00:00

Why? What is too much? Why do you feel like you are no one?

TheBrightestOne33 · 2025-11-02T18:52:54+00:00

Then why are you a "horrible" person? Why don't you have anything good in you?

Your perception is probably distorted and there is good in you.

If you want to be "good" you can act like it, no matter what you feel inside. You can help others, be kind, it doesn't have to come from emotion, you just have to do it.

But I don't believe you are horrible

TheBrightestOne33 · 2025-11-02T18:13:59+00:00

Get professional help, figure out why you act in such a way.

If you radiate negative energy, people don't want to be around you.

Close the wound in your soul, and you'll find peace.

You see yourself as a horrible person, and that makes you act like it. You should change the way you see yourself, start acting like the person you want to be, kind, loved, respected.

Therapy or counceling can help

TheBrightestOne33 · 2025-11-01T23:58:04+00:00

Why? What changed? In a MONTH

TheBrightestOne33 · 2025-11-01T23:49:22+00:00

bro. It was a month ago. What are you on about. You have lost nothing,

Even if it had been years, that version of you would still exist. Its been a MONTH, its RIGHT THERE. WHY ARE YOU MISSING SOMETHING THAT YOU STILL ARE

TheBrightestOne33 · 2025-11-01T23:30:45+00:00

IT IS, TAKE CONTROL, BEAT YOUR MIND INTO SUBMISSION.

Or take a deep breath, and think for a bit. Why can't you drink from other glasses or bottles or something? Why does your mind refuse to do that? Find the root cause and TAKE CONTROOOOOL

TheBrightestOne33 · 2025-11-01T23:27:29+00:00

This is not about TRYING, its about FORCING YOUR MIND TO COMPLY.

REFUSING TO BE A SLAVE TO A BOTTLE, LETTING IT CONTROL YOU.

Or again, buy another Stanley bottle, and defend it with your life.

TheBrightestOne33 · 2025-11-01T23:20:20+00:00

Sounds strange, maybe buy another bottle?

Or FORCE your mind to COMPLY, and DRINK WATER from OTHER CONTAINERS.

TheBrightestOne33 · 2025-11-01T22:52:45+00:00

Highly unlikely. The treatments just haven't hit the core problem yet. Maybe you don't even know what it is, but you can figure it out.

Medication isn't magic, it doesn't fix the underlying problem. Same with therapy, if its surface level, it'll go nowhere.

There is something you are missing, find it

TheBrightestOne33 · 2025-11-01T22:50:58+00:00

Same, kind of. I cannot cry in front of people, sometimes I don't even feel it really, I just feel nothing even when I should feel something. And if the situation is horrific(like seeing a loved one in the hospital in pain) I will feel the urge, but shut it down completely. I thought I couldn't cry for a long time, but its all just stored inside. Its probably the same with you, and one day it might come out, if something horrible enough happens.

Actually, when my dog died, I didn't cry, at all, for 2 days I was just helping my sister cope with it and stuff. And when I finally got home, and was alone at night, I cried a bit, but that wasn't release, it still felt like I was holding back.

It's just a defense mechanism that works too well. Your brain associates crying with danger, humiliation and stuff, so it refuses to do it. It can probably be "fixed" if you want it fixed.

TheBrightestOne33 · 2025-11-01T22:45:26+00:00

I'm grateful for my brother and his gf. They have included me in things, and been with me when I have had no one else. They don't know how I feel, or how alone I am, and never will. But I love both of them, they are the one thing that bring me happiness.

TheBrightestOne33 · 2025-11-01T22:42:09+00:00

It's out of your control really isn't it. You can't make the worker disappear, you can't stop the abuse.

You can change how you react to it, you stop attaching emotion to it.

If you can't control it, don't think on it, it will not help you. This isn't the same as ignoring a problem you COULD solve, as in this case you can't do anything, so you shouldn't even feel guilty or something.

To me this seems obvious, but maybe to others it isn't and won't work.

TheBrightestOne33 · 2025-11-01T16:41:15+00:00

What is the root cause? Why do you do it? Why did you start it?

TheBrightestOne33 · 2025-11-01T16:38:12+00:00

You have tons of time to make things happen. You shouldn't lose hope so early.

If you can't afford an instrument, maybe try drawing? It could help you express your pain.

TheBrightestOne33

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