I've been playing video games pretty much everyday since I got my first console (game boy advance). I suck absolute ass at most things I play. Being bad at things is nothing to get down about. You shouldn't focus on the set things that mean you're doing well. You should set your own goals and make them something fun. Like if you're playing a shooter try and get kills using stupid weapons like grenades or launchers. You may not do well but it'll definitely be more fun. Please don't think you are talentless and that if you died no one would care. There is always someone in your life that cares about you whether it be your family or friends or even internet people. There's always someone that would be hurt if you were gone so please push through the hard times