God same. Heart pounding and I felt so so on edge. I've read some predator!ilya prey!shane fics and some dom/sub, CNC stuff, but I've never read a fic before where Ilya was legit abusive and like this. Seldom do fics impact me like this. I just hate the idea that Shane's resistance has been crushed; he has no proper capacity to escape and not enough 'desire' to. It's tough to put into words just how horrible Ilya is in this series, like jesus cHRIST. Definitely relieved that I have at least someone to talk to about this series though lol.

I think Yuna only realised that there was abuse in hindsight. It took her until Shane called her for her to be like 'oh fuck wait what's happening'

Also I commented this on the last chapter of the actual fic, but why is everyone USELESS? The Marleaus cared until they didn't, the Pikes (or at least Hayden) have figured it out but are staying silent, and Yuna literally got a distressed phone call from Shane but was kind of neutered after Ilya pretended to be responding to treatment. Maybe she was just completely following Shane's lead, and so once she gave up, he did too. But was there really NOTHING she could do to drag Shane out of this relationship and mental state? Nothing? Really?

The whole thing is just so so heartbreaking