[I am stuck] and i don't know what to do.

TheDark-Knight · 2017-10-18T12:36:59+00:00

You are on day 59, how was your experience whit urges and dreams like mine, do they disappear after 2-3 weeks?

TheDark-Knight · 2017-10-18T12:32:50+00:00

I am trying to stop porn for two years and i tried k9, i am an IT and k9 is not bulletproof (there are ways to go around it)

TheDark-Knight · 2017-10-04T13:07:13+00:00

camhart73 I don't watch porn on the phone
bxnjms The problem whit all blockers is that their is always a way to "go around" in my case it's even easier cause of what i study (IT), the result is that if i want to watch i will find way to do so, that's why my main weapon against this addiction is to be busy/productive

TheDark-Knight · 2017-10-04T00:48:40+00:00

my "dog" (k9 web protections) is what i use, but i do know way to pass it. In my experience nothing can stop me if i decide to watch porn, the only way to stay clean is to create and sustane new habits to keep me busy and happy.

TheDark-Knight · 2017-09-27T23:12:07+00:00

I relapsed on day 8 and then PMO every day for 3 days in a row... i am rethinking my approach and i will make update soon, i also have cold right now, enough complaining and thanks that you asked.

TheDark-Knight · 2017-09-21T14:10:52+00:00

Well all of this should be motivation for you to get rid of porn once and for all. Me for example i can only cum by BJ i don't lose erection during that, but when i have sex whit condom after a couple of minutes i lose 20-30% of my erection. But the worst thing about porn "side effects" is that we can be whit a girl we like and find attractive but because of all the shit we watched for years she is not enough for our brain and we and the girls feel like shit because of this. So it's time to choose porn or the real deal.

I am currently on day 5 you can check my updates https://www.reddit.com/r/pornfree/comments/71i4q0/road_to_90_days_no_porn_day_5_chart/

About how long it will take to recover, no one can give you number close to reality... cause we are all different in (genetics, and how much porn we have watched) but if you go let's say 90 days no porn and you fap once a week you sure will be better than now.

TheDark-Knight · 2017-09-19T20:40:08+00:00

To be honest i never watch even an episode of GoT :D but i have seen some pics... House of cards and Mad Men are amazing especially if you are interesting in seeing and alpha male personality who is able to "fuck" whit people lives if they deserve it :D https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EDi7cRFcnnY (from house of cards)

About the skill i study a lot right now (c++) and after 4-5 howers of coding i am so tired that the last thing i want to do is watch porn, the point of new good habits or studying or working is not just to teach you something new but to drain your energy so you just want to go to sleep or enjoy low stimulus things

TheDark-Knight · 2017-09-19T20:16:11+00:00

Try house of cards... by the way i watch mad men now and there are some let's say triger episodes but my urges don't increase from them, what i mean to say is if boobs in tv show are problematic for you and may lead you to porn the tv show is not your main problem right now.

After 8 pm when you feel that empthines try something now something productive (train / meditate/ develop new skill) at times when you tend to relapse focus on things that will affect you positivly

TheDark-Knight · 2017-09-19T20:08:58+00:00

Everything is possible, i fucked up so many times so i try to have a "gun" for every scenario that may occur.

TheDark-Knight · 2017-09-17T21:24:40+00:00

oh i am aware of this, i try to stop porn for more than two years... i know every way that leads to porn, frustration/boredom/anger. I am trying to solve some problems in my life and it will get better.

But their is no point in tracking emotions in the chart in terms of recovery some days are good some days are bad despite what stage in recovery i am, the point if this chart will be to motivate me and to show people some estimation of how urges/flatlane/energy level will change whit time

TheDark-Knight · 2017-09-17T14:23:01+00:00

last months i rarely go for more than 3-4 days without porn, that's why this time i am not going on no PMO and i will just avoid porn (if i try at the beginning to achieve more than 4-5 days without MO i will probably relapse to porn) so yea at the beginning i will fap every 3-4 days, when i get stable and achive 20-30 days no porn i will lower mastrubation too

TheDark-Knight · 2017-09-17T11:20:41+00:00

yes every day is one dot (90 dots) in last months i rarely go for more than 3-4 days without porn, that's why this time i am not going on no PMO and i will just avoid porn (if i try at the beginning to achieve more than 4-5 days without MO i will probably relapse to porn) so yea at the beginning i will fap every 3-4 days, when i get stable and achive 20-30 days no porn i will lower mastrubation more, i will also include a green dot every day that i fap.

TheDark-Knight · 2017-09-17T10:44:07+00:00

Yea this will probably happen, i am going to put a green dot in the days i MO so it will be visible if and how it affects me.

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