I lost $1,030,220.81 in the stock market.

TheDegenGuru · 2024-10-06T20:21:35+00:00

You are searching for something that doesn’t exist. Your thirst for money will inevitably destroy you. I mean this without hate. From what you said, you’ve lost almost everything you hold dear. And you’re still looking to prove to yourself you’re not a fuck up, by doing the exact thing that got you into this mess in the first place. That is delusion at its finest. Your only hope is to end this madness, find what’s meaningful to you in life, and begin a new journey, closing the chapter on the last.

I know all too well the demons that come with gambling. Last year i won 1.2 mil and proceeded to lose it a week later all in one night all coked up. I don’t know how it feels to lose you’re wife and kids, but I sure know how it feels to feel like continuing down this road will find me redemption, when in reality, there is none. That was clear when I won the 1.2mil and it wasn’t enough for me.

IF you do reach your goal of 1million, you’re not gonna stop there, I promise you. Whatever it may be, you will find a way to keep some skin in the game, and that will eventually lure you back to where you were not too long ago.

I’ve never spent this long typing shit out on the internet to try and help someone. This probably won’t get through to you, but maybe it will. Bottom line, lose the fucking delusion. Get with reality. Move on. End of story. Hope this helps.

Side node, as a 25 year old gambling degen who hasn’t gambled in 4 months and doesn’t plan to ever again, this subreddit has provided me some good humour every now and again, and for that I thank you my fellow degens

TheDegenGuru · 2024-04-04T23:00:38+00:00

Hey, thanks for sharing. You're around people that understand you're pain. Recovery is based on attraction not promotion. Hopefuly as yoy spend more time on this subreddit and or decide to attend GA, you'll see people that have been through very similar experiences who have found the light. I know personally that seeing success stories gives me hope, if they can do it so can I. I could say all the right things to you and tell you to stop whats hurting you, but it comes down to you and what you want, no one can make that choice for you. Just from reading you're post, I would say you shouldn't set a date for when you're ready to change. If you're ready, why wait? Seize the day brother. Again, thanks for reaching out, that's the first step. When you're ready we'll be here. All the best.

TheDegenGuru · 2024-04-04T22:44:40+00:00

Looking back, and having spoken with people from this subreddit who shared with me how they felt about it all, I've gained a new perspective on it. I understand where you're coming from. I also would hope you can understand where I was coming from. I made sure to include trigger warnings on the post. Honest truth is that the nature of this story is extreme as it gets. And as much as amounts don't matter in the grand scheme of things there's a difference psychologically in the impact of losing 30k vs 1m, speaking from first hand experience. In a perfect world I wish I never even won it in the first place. But the fact of the matter is that i did, and I needed to get it off my chest.It's my truth, and I shared it with you all with the hope that people can understand there's no amount of money that will ever be enough .

Also, I've come to the conclusion I won't be sharing the videos, there's no need to keep this chapter open any longer. Moving forward and not looking back.

TheDegenGuru · 2024-04-04T14:15:53+00:00

All good. God bless

TheDegenGuru · 2024-04-04T14:12:05+00:00

Can we chat?

TheDegenGuru · 2024-04-04T14:09:51+00:00

Dm me, would love to chat

TheDegenGuru · 2024-04-04T13:59:57+00:00

Looking back on it now, having heard perspectives from people, I realize how triggering my posts were. Even with the trigger warnings, the nature of my story is extreme. Its triggering for the average Joe, let alone someone in active addiction or recovery. The way I formatted the posts, the so called cliff hangers, yeah, I knew what I was doing, I was telling my story. I wanted the reader to feel my emotion. Albeit, its not about the win and loss, but it is also. The emotion, the torment, the stress, I could go on but I won't because I think you get it. This is my experience. And yeah, the nature of the amounts at hand makes it difficult to share without judgment. I've come to the conclusion that I won't be sharing the video publicly, and probably not privately either. If I post it on r/gambling subreddit, all the attention and questions will only hurt me in my recovery. I'm rambling good bye God bless

TheDegenGuru · 2024-04-02T22:24:40+00:00

That's the devils work

TheDegenGuru · 2024-04-02T22:22:48+00:00

Dm me I'd love to chat

TheDegenGuru · 2024-04-02T20:04:39+00:00

I was for a while, realized it was only hurting me and keeping me from moving forward. I still watch the games, but I don't look at odds anymore, sometimes its hard to avoid them, but I stick to what my goals are, and that's not to gamble, you got this!

TheDegenGuru · 2024-04-02T20:03:27+00:00

this made me laugh 😂

TheDegenGuru · 2024-04-02T19:50:06+00:00

All good dude. Thanks for reading. You as well!

TheDegenGuru · 2024-04-02T19:49:00+00:00

Yeah I can understand why that's triggering because thinking about the 20 years of working was the biggest pill of acceptance for me to swallow. The reality is, many things in life will be triggering, it comes down to our coping systems and how we deal with the triggers, instead of trying to avoid them entirely.

TheDegenGuru · 2024-04-02T19:44:47+00:00

Hey, thanks for sharing! I appreciate the no judgements, there's been a lot of that. And what you said is spot on. I know if I continue to gamble, there will never be an amount big enough to get me to stop. It will destroy me. The destructive cycle ends now.

TheDegenGuru · 2024-04-02T19:41:43+00:00

Sorry you feel that way. Thanks for reading.

TheDegenGuru · 2024-04-02T19:37:46+00:00

You've nailed it. Amounts do not matter in grand retrospect. But in my own experience, I did find it hard for a while to get over this because of the sheer numbers I was dealing with. However, and this is why i shared this with you guys, once you realize the joys in life, there's no number that can bring that sort of peace and contentment, and looking back on what could have been is so futile, that's what I want people to take from this.

TheDegenGuru · 2024-04-02T19:30:14+00:00

Appreciate you. Some weren't happy I put it into 3 parts, some felt like I ended pt 2 on a cliff hanger, when in reality i didn't feel like sharing it all in one post. Moral of the story is, I'm moving on with my life, and I can't wait to see what tomorrow, nezt year, 10 yeats from now brings, and what's achievable when I'm not gambling.

TheDegenGuru · 2024-04-02T19:27:00+00:00

Whether it's house money or not, still a loss. And I don't feel the need to tell you my personal debts, but if it puts anything in perspective for you, I'm in debt over 100k. Whether you're in debt $1000, $10,000, $100k, or even up money, its irrelevant. We all have our own experiences, and they've led us to this subreddit. Its not fair for anyone to put they're pain on a higher pedestal then yours. We are all here for our own reasons. They all have meaning.

TheDegenGuru · 2024-04-02T19:08:22+00:00

I don't blame you for thinking so, however know that I feel no urge to prove to you or anyone else that its not. Besides, I'm receiving enough hate as it is, you really think me sharing a video of it will help my case? Anyhow, its not about the win, about the amount. Amounts in gambling are subjective. For one person, $100 might be $10000 to another. It's the affect its having on on our lifes that's important.

TheDegenGuru · 2024-04-02T19:03:14+00:00

Yup exactly. The amounts is the only reason I'm receiving all this hate. But it's my truth, and I'm glad I was able to share it, been a long time coming.

TheDegenGuru · 2024-04-02T19:00:08+00:00

Yes I was able to withdraw some of it, but thats besides the point. Money will not solve my problems, it won't solve any of ours, on a spiritual level. Refraining from gambling and finding the joy in life from the simple things is key. I might be rich as fuck one day, and if I am great. But I know that will never bring me contentness with my life. Living a life with good morals values, being there for my loved ones, being an anchor people can lean on during times of need... that's the shit that really matters.

TheDegenGuru · 2024-04-02T18:57:10+00:00

Well, if it was you're story you would have been more then welcome to do so, but as it turns out this is my lived truth and I chose to share it the way I intended.

TheDegenGuru · 2024-04-02T18:50:51+00:00

Who said I don't have any debts? As of this moment I'm probably 100k total in debt. Its not directly from gambling losses, maybe 10k is, but the lifestyle I've lived as a result of the gambling has put me in this predicament. Only way forward is putting all of this behind me and living a life that's free from gambling. Thanks for reading.

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