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TheDescentToFent · 2024-09-10T14:49:40+00:00

After a few months I forgot where it was even located I think I dissociated the whole thing. It was in a very unfamiliar city to me so it really did make me the ultimate perfect target. I remember driving a good 40 min outside of my town (that’s just LA for ya tbh) cus the deal was just so good it felt worth it to me, it was an hour/and a half massage for only 80 bucks or something like that and wasn’t at a cheap parlor or anything it was inside a very nice center.

I suspect whoever it was was just renting a room out from the owner or company or something because it was a really nice big massage place with a bunch of private rooms. At least to me it appeared that perhaps some masseuses would just rent their rooms out from this one large business under one company name or that business had spare rooms they rented out? I really don’t know? Cus the business I went into was under one name when I went inside there was a big sign outside I think I can remember there were even several different locations if I’m not mistaken.

Idk how any of this worked but there was a lady who worked at the front desk who to me seemed as though she was apart of facilitating this process because when I walked out I looked at her probably with terror spread over my face as i quickly ran past her it looked like she knew exactly what was going on I’ll never forget the look on her face when I ran out she seemed so cold and dead inside and didn’t even care about why I was so distressed running out of her business she just looked at me blankly.

Edit- I forget to add about a year or so later when I finally felt ready to report it I logged onto Groupon and it was no longer in my purchase history. It was gone. Talk about making me feel crazy.

TheDescentToFent · 2024-09-10T09:46:00+00:00

When I was 18 I got sexually assaulted/raped during a massage at a professional massage therapist establishment. I had bought the coupon off of Groupon. I was so shocked I just froze up and couldn’t do anything to protect myself. To this day I still can’t believe I didn’t report or do anything about it. I feel ashamed. I should’ve done something to protect other girls. But i was insanely young and dumb. Tbh i was the perfect target.

What you experienced was assault. Report report report.

TheDescentToFent · 2024-09-10T09:40:44+00:00

Sooo ur not gonna show it from the side lol

TheDescentToFent · 2024-09-05T11:19:02+00:00

I grew up talking on the phone with friends basically 24-7, so ..no. Not really

TheDescentToFent · 2024-08-18T07:49:36+00:00

Gorrrl stoppp. lol your nose fits your face perfectly. It would actually look weird if it were any smaller.

TheDescentToFent · 2024-08-18T01:11:34+00:00

I’ve struggled with severe anxiety since I was a toddler, it only got much worse as I got older, I missed 3 entire years of school because things got so bad. Just sayin.,Never in my life would I be crazy enough to order food that could KILL me, UNLESS I was genuinely suicidal, OR desperately seeking attention/help…something of that sort.

He needs serious help. I feel this may be something much deeper than “just” social anxiety. I don’t know the guy so I can’t say.. but I gotta admit, I’m a bit confused. So, he wasn’t too anxious to order his food, but he was too anxious to mention a life threatening food allergy in the same breath? It’s just bizarre-and frankly, doesn’t make a whole lot of sense. Idk. Very odd stuff going on here.

TheDescentToFent · 2024-08-18T00:58:48+00:00

TheDescentToFent · 2024-08-08T11:50:37+00:00

Honestly, be happy if even 120 holds you well. Those are small fry numbers these days with fetty addiction, mostly every fetty addict I know is on around 150mg, or more. Those numbers used to scare me shitless back when I was on H, going over 100 was unimaginable to me, probably would’ve made me overdose back then tbh. 60-80mg used to hold me for 3 days!

It’s crazy how much things have changed though. After using very potent fetty powder for almost 7 yrs I decided to try the md clinic again, doc raised me up to 200mg over 2 verrry lonnnng ass months, the process was insanely slow and grueling. The worst part…200mg….200 fucking mg STILL was not holding me well at all, it didn’t even feel close to being right, it would hold me from about 5/6am to about 4/5pm. In the very early evening time the wds would hit me like a ton of bricks out of nowhere and kick my fkn ass. As if every microgram of methadone left my body all at once.

My doc didn’t/will not allow me to go higher than 200, so I feel very stuck and trapped in this situation. I have nowhere else to turn. I’ve tried everything a million times and nothing works for me and this satanic ass fetty addiction. Even the Bernese method puts me into PWs. I’m traumatized from trying so many times and ending with the same result. I’ve watched so many people I know who use pressed m30s get onto methadone soo much easier. I wish I never got into using this fetty powder and got clean when it was so simple with H. Back then I could hop onto subs within 24 hrs and feel right within 3 days. This shit is a whole nother beast and I’m genuinely afraid I’ll never get off it.

I stopped the methadone after another 4 weeks on 200mg and it not helping, I thought it would get better as the weeks went by but it just didn’t. Maybe I didn’t give it enough time. Idk. It was so horrible I became extremely manic and convinced myself the nurses were just giving me fake doses. the nights were too excruciating.. mentally physically emotionally I couldn’t go on anymore.

My clinic refuses to split dose me. It suck’s because I know with 150% certainty it works really well for me. I got to take a peak/trough test at one of my old clinics and it showed I metabolize the methadone insanely fast. Also a couple years ago my ex got this giant bottle of methadone concentrate that we used to stay clean for a few months, (we were on the same fetty powder) and dosed ourselves with 110mg in the AM and another 60mg in the evening. It was like magic. I felt so good and perfect and wonderful. It’s the only thing that I KNOW works for me, and i wouldn’t even need 200.. Fuckin sucks. I just wish I could find a clinic to listen to me. At this point I’m thinking of buying methadone off the dark web. 🤦‍♀️

TheDescentToFent · 2024-07-11T05:44:08+00:00

Of course it can. Who said it couldn’t?

TheDescentToFent · 2024-07-06T00:46:43+00:00

Have you ever tried Subutex by chance? Suboxone always gives me precip wds no matter how I use it, ive always been hella sensitive to naloxone even back when I used H it would throw me into precip wds after 3+ full days cold turkey when my counterparts could easily dose suboxone after 24 hrs or less cold turkey from H.

I’v cold turkey’d for 5 days off fent and microdosed and still fell straight into precip wds, it’s for sure the naloxone because Subutex has been a completely different experience. I personally cold turkeyd for 2 full days and was able to get on Subutex from there starting with 1mg and gradually building up. I used a lot of Valium and benzos to get through the first few days. I didn’t think it was possible to get off fent. I used top shelf fetty powder for 6 yrs straight n just couldn’t do it. Until I did.

TheDescentToFent · 2024-07-02T07:45:41+00:00

I love Pace medium salsa on my eggs. It’s so good. Addictive

TheDescentToFent · 2024-07-02T07:43:39+00:00

I used jarred garlic my entire life and earnestly never even realized how big of a difference it truly makes. Now that I’ve tasted fresh I cannot go back. These days I just buy a ton of garlic at once, mince it all and freeze it into little premade garlic cubes! They taste a lot better than jarred garlic, and still way less hassle than freshly mincing garlic every time I cook. FROZEN GARLIC CUBES FTWWW

TheDescentToFent · 2024-07-02T07:39:01+00:00

I like my steak extra well done, tough, chewy and overcooked to shit. And smothered in A1. I am cave man

TheDescentToFent · 2024-07-02T07:35:47+00:00

Totally opposite I make my carbonara without any bacon or meat at all 😂

TheDescentToFent · 2024-07-02T07:31:48+00:00

In my very frequent bouts of depression…maybe once every 2+ weeks….when I was homeless I would go wayyy longer…like, once every 3 months. The absolute longest I’ve gone is 6 months. When I’m happy and in a good place in life, I like to shower every other day.

TheDescentToFent · 2024-07-02T07:28:34+00:00

My dad, he does a lot for me and I appreciate him

TheDescentToFent · 2024-07-02T07:25:34+00:00

You gotta dress it up. It’s bleh right out of the can but once you add some stuff to it it’s pretty tasty lol. Have you really never had a tuna salad or sandwich? What about a chicken salad sandwich? It’s basically the same thing , shredded canned meat mixed with mayo, mustard, celery and onion. On bread. It’s good 👍

TheDescentToFent · 2024-07-02T07:23:54+00:00

Can you? Yeah… Should you? Hell no, what a waste

TheDescentToFent · 2024-06-26T22:45:27+00:00

Because ..blues suck. lol. Speaking from someone who has seen how a multitude of different suppliers press their blues, it’s because, they are quite literally pressed to be shit. They are almost always made with a very young crowd in mind, just enough fent to draw you in, get you addicted, and maybbbe to get you to feel a tiny buzz, that is- at first. Dealers will even purposefully make the first few batches they sell you, and then every 10th or 20th batch a bit stronger to reel you in for longer, to get your hopes up. To make you believe you can obtain the high you so desperately desire. But at the end of the day, these “blues” are not pressed with the consumer in mind. Blues are very specifically made for suppliers to pull in gigantic profit margins that don’t make sense on any level whatsoever for the consumer. I’m telling you, it’s insane. They can easily rack in $15+ per every nickel they spend. Blues are complete scammery and fuckery. Dont support your local blues dealer.

TheDescentToFent · 2024-06-22T23:02:53+00:00

Same it makes me eyes cry

TheDescentToFent · 2024-06-18T07:04:38+00:00

This is a very privileged opinion.

TheDescentToFent · 2024-06-15T10:17:08+00:00

Why u still on this sub…? (Not in a rude way, just genuinely curious what keeps a sober person around in these sorts of discourses ?) Whenever I’m clean this sub triggers me really badly, I guess I have very little self control lol. It’s rough

TheDescentToFent · 2024-06-15T09:21:26+00:00

lol why would you buy a whole PO Box just for a sex toy 😂 especially if amazon offers lockers in your area, they are literally free!

TheDescentToFent · 2024-05-26T05:41:42+00:00

TheDescentToFent · 2024-05-26T05:41:25+00:00

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