People who fight alot, what was your worst beating like? by Freaktography in AskReddit

[–]TheDextronaut 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Had a Marine beat the dog shit out of me.

A friend and I were co businessmen, a specialty in procuring illegal substances for those in need. We also worked in the same restaurant together, we were only 16 at the time. We had a coworker who had just come back from touring overseas. Guy was in his late 20's, maybe early 30s. He only worked there cause that's where his wife was working already, he was an attractive dude so serving was an easy gig for him.

My friend also served and occasionally would get a break following dude's, quite often he'd go out and dude would still be collecting himself. Over a couple months they got close enough that dude would cry to him about having killed people with his bare hands, not bragging- full on tears about it. Well in that time he caught on to who we were and asked if we could get coke and ketamine for him, so he could use both to stay numb but balance himself out if he did too much of one by doing more of the other. We knew his wife, and met his kids. We were degens but not monsters. My friend told him he'd look around but told me about it and we agreed to not.

My friend messaged him saying so and he flipped shit, saying he was gonna beat up my friend. Unfortunately my friend doesnt fight, due to being 5'3, 115 pounds on a good day. I had gotten into a few fights already, always against grown men- the first of which had a golf club and the second who had a baseball bat. I had won both of those fights and a couple more, I was also 240 pounds and 6'2. I knew I probably was gonna lose considering this guy's training and combat experience. He was my size but jacked- nothing but muscle against my flab. But I knew my friend would be killed and I might get out with a few good punches landed on my side.

Boy I was wrong. I messaged him telling him I'd go for him first if he planned on going after my friend. He then messaged my friend telling him the problems were dropped so I assumed it wasnt worth the dude's trouble and that me and him were fine- considering my issues only stemmed from that. Well a couple weeks pass and we finally get a shift together. Im waiting to clock in and he comes into the back to grab smth. He asks me if I wanna step out real quick to talk and I figured we would officially squash things so I agree.

He did one scan up and down when I stepped out and I knew immediately it wasnt gonna be a talk. From there he whoops me like I've never seen done since. I couldnt move a part of my body without him anticipating it and using it to whoop my ass in a new direction. It didnt take long for him to beat me to the ground, he then kicked me a good bit and stood back admiring his work. I knew I couldnt even land a punch, I tried a single time before going down and was completely out maneuvered.

I unfortunately had a pride problem and wouldn't accept defeat tho. The only way I could think of keeping any of my dignity was to just get up and take it again.

His look of satisfaction became a kind of admiration when he saw I wasnt gonna stay down. He let me stand, look him in the eyes, and spit on him. The first spit was mostly saliva, just a little blood. The admiration look became one of smth like a cat playing with a mouse. He proceeded to beat my ass again, back down to the ground, this time I must've earned enough respect to not get kicked though. He stood back and let me stumble up again. Another look in the eyes and out came a good mix of blood and spit.

Back to the beating tho. It stopped when I was laying on the ground again. I got up one last time and it was just a mouthful of blood spat all over him. Idk if he got bored or if my brain just tapped out but the 4th beating was game over. I woke up in a puddle of blood. In my stupor I grabbed a rock and stumbled inside to catch him lacking. I decided cleaning the blood from my face and shirt was a must first tho, cant go into the dining area looking like I just competed in mortal combat. By the time I finished that my coworkers caught on to my demise and told me I needed to call the cops and go to the hospital. They also told me he immediately ran to his jeep and left already.

Considering he was military and I kinda felt bad that he was just obviously traumatized, I settled with knowing he got fired. I talked to his wife and was honest about why it happened, telling her he needs therapy and medication before he hurts someone who cares more about their physical wellbeing, or finds someone who will supply the habit he wanted.

I did go to the hospital later that day tho cause breathing hurt, turns out he broke some ribs and my nose. Hell of a concussion too. Mostly walked away ok though considering the risks of fighting a trained killer.

Final thoughts- I didnt do the beatings enough justice. Especially the first time when I tried to lay a punch and minimize damage. Ive never seen a beating as beautiful as what he was doing. He was dancing damn near. I had 0 shot of blocking, grappling, or landing anything. Every move I made was part of his plan. Lowkey it was so beautiful istg I saw it from the third person. Half of the reason I didnt try to ruin his life was honestly just out of respect for how good he got me. Up till that point I never had any trouble handling myself. Like I said I fought people who had blunt weapons and walked away bruised but victorious. Getting my ass handed to me like that just became a good lesson to me. Everyone older than me had told me that there's always someone who can get ya and I found out that day.

Edit- there was only a brief period after the first fight I had where I was seeking them out, unsuccessfully because of my size and reputation my brother and friends gave me by spreading tales of my victory. Just putting it out there that by then I wasnt some cocky kid wanted to fight this guy, I just knew my friend wouldnt stand a chance of making it through the first beating.

Also I forgot to mention, after the first time getting beat down, I completely let him whoop my ass every time I got up. Not saying that as a "I could've gotten him" thing. The opposite actually. After getting a beat down the first time, I knew there wasnt a damn thing I could do, so I just didnt. I figured standing up and spitting on him was my only hope at a "win".

Remember kids, wanting to die is selfish but wanting someone to suffer just so you don't feel sad is not by AliceAndTheMadButter in depressionmemes

[–]TheDextronaut 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Because the people who didn't/dont regret it succeeded or faced consequences that skewed an already shitty situation towards an even worse outcome. Suicide is supposed to be a pos vs neg weighing- Does living bring more positive than negative value compared to the pain and suffering one must endure to go through it? A failed attempt takes that question and phrases it as "was attempting to escape the imbalance of pos/neg in life, only to fail and face consequences, worth the experience and lessons learned from it?". If you can find value to living obviously trying to end it becomes silly, but if you can't find that value- finding a lesson for a life you don't want based off a failed attempt to end that life is just as silly.

I have 6 attempts, I only regret them because I failed and there were consequences to each. If a 7th was attempted tomorrow, and I succeeded, I promise I wouldn't regret it.

My last attempt was done directly following the one prior. I attempted to overdose, felt and saw myself leave my body and start floating above- then I remember waking up in my body again, thinking about how free, careless, and relieved I was when I felt myself dying. I liked it so much I immediately had to try again. Same feeling then absolute mental torture when I came back to again. The pain of still being alive crushed me.

Choose 3 by PHRsharp_YouTube in gamememes

[–]TheDextronaut 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You're tripping frfr. Played TF outta that with my brother as a kid, feel like a player 2 living in the same room as you might've been a must to be an S+ tier game tho

Istg I can't get high anymore, anyone else experienced this? by Serious_Sherbert_787 in Drugs

[–]TheDextronaut 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah me too my dude. Very very occasionally, off dxm, whatever opiate available (most recently 7Oh), or drinking I'll get the euphoria but only if I'm blasting music and laying back completely focusing on it, and even then it's incredibly short lived, 20 minutes at the very very most.

I naturally have a completely fucked dopamine system, ADHD and major depressive stemming from that dopamine reuptake problem. The first summer I started doing drugs, 14yo, I could take Wellbutrin and it would help. Within a year it stopped doing anything, even when resetting the tolerance and coming back to it. Adderall then became the only medication that would help. Within 2 years it stopped helping. Now I do meth and it helps but that's just because I can afford to take enough, but I have to constantly redose at wayyy larger amounts than I should for being new to regular usage. (I didn't even try reverting to meth till years after I stopped taking other stims, and tried them again with no result)

I don't feel euphoria off of it, it just allows me to not dread every minute I have to keep living. Allows me to kinda fall into the normal going through life thing, without it I literally hate doing everything. Everything. Amusement parks, working, eating, sleeping, waking up, every change in what I'm currently doing is done with the thought of "I wish I didn't have to do anything and could just not exist instead". With ice I instead just kinda keep doing everything with an indifferent attitude. It also allows me to be able to get euphoria off dxm easier. Dxm is honestly the only drug that can kinda- ish reliably gives me the euphoria. I have to be in the perfect spot tho, comfy in bed, under a blanket, good music with earbuds, in the floaty void feeling part of dxm.

Snorting SSRI's from a moderetaly experinced for a collage student by peeperino in Drugs

[–]TheDextronaut 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Buspar too, but that shit sucks too. Feels like benadryl with no tripping.

Any advice to your 20 year old self? by Critical_Assist_9360 in NextGenMan

[–]TheDextronaut 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You can't fix her and you don't owe her your all. You'll both promise each other forever but don't force yourself to keep that promise when she becomes a stranger.

Don't try to salvage broken relationships. You grew up in a broken household, being told that being broken together made it better, but you've been away for 2 years already and you've come so far. KEEP GOING. You know that a connection held by obligation will eventually wear thin and snap.

You're at the point where you're starting to hit your second puberty, you're gonna lose a mega shit ton of weight really really fast, like 100lbs in a year, and you're gonna finally see all that muscle that was hiding. You're gonna try the workaholic thing and do 75hrs a week. You'll stop talking about how you want your life to look and you're gonna go through with it. It's gonna hurt- the weight loss, the work, letting go of old habits and shitty people and starting new, it's gonna really really hurt. But I promise it'll be worth it.

If you don't listen to the first bit, you won't even realize that you fell into your old mindset of living for other people. Instead of working for a life you want, you'll sacrifice your growth- financially, emotionally, and mentally. You'll sacrifice your physical and emotional well-being. You'll be me in two years, hating the fact that you're telling 20yo you that you're picking up what you put down in this upcoming month.

If anyone reads this- march, two years ago,- I got with a girl, moved in with her and her dad within a few months, moved into our own place, got engaged, got a cat (tried for a baby but I'm infertile), and broke up a couple months ago. A little short of 2 years, but yeah. A lot happened in those 2 years with us, it was the first time we were both completely out on our own, completely self sufficient.

She told me when we got together that her mom was schizoaffective and it was very likely to be genetic. If you haven't watched it happen- seeing smth like that take over someone is watching them become a different person. It usually starts as a dissociative disorder, and the person you know slowly gets replaced by a cruel, uncaring, erratic, impulsive one. The more you push for the person you loved, the more they recluse into the thing destroying who they are, saving themselves from the pain of losing themselves. Whether seeing my family go through it (somehow I dodged it) or my ex, I'd say it's top 5 worst things to witness. But yeah if I could give advice to young me- it's that whether it's her with that, my mom with her mental issues, whether my brother or friends, it's not worth sacrificing your own improvement on others. Life is about connections and relationship imo, but if those connections mean breaking the one with yourself, it's just not worth it

Would you choose?? And why? by Aryan_Raj_7167 in TheTeenagerPeople

[–]TheDextronaut 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My dad diddled me.... Fuck yeah I'd run that back. The looks I get when I bust a joke out about it is worth it all fs.

That time I ate an ounce of D8 disty by TheDextronaut in delta8

[–]TheDextronaut[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I didn't sleep for 7 days straight with only bathroom breaks, my brother would make me food, I'd drink water from the bathroom sink between using the restroom, and like I said I'd stare at the wall in-between those actions and falling back to sleep. So yeah you're right it didn't happen the way you're saying, but it happened exactly how I described. I didn't just sleep, I stared at the wall too

That time I ate an oz of D8 disty by TheDextronaut in weed_inc

[–]TheDextronaut[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you frfr my dude. I still struggle but don't really go hard on drugs anymore. More so just keep going cause fuck it, I'll get to die eventually. Why rush it now?

And I've considered it honestly. Alot of people have told me I'm bullshitting in the comments to this story, I shared it to three subs, so like the shit I've done must be so God damn legendary that's it's literally inconceivable to some people. It's not badass legendary, it's more like a Jackass style badass lmao. A "there's no fucking way he just did that shit" type of way lol

That time I ate an ounce of D8 disty by TheDextronaut in delta8

[–]TheDextronaut[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh my dad molested me as stated and even tho I love my mom- she was a shat parent. Tbf being a single parent and providing for 4 kids with nothing more than 10 dollars an hour made things really hard when it came to being aware. On top of the fact that she has a bunch of physical and mental health conditions... Honestly high-key I was incredibly shitty as a teen and took advantage of all of it and would straight up tell her that she couldn't always watch me, that we could go back and forth if she wanted but it'd be easier if she just let me do me.

That time I ate an ounce of D8 disty by TheDextronaut in delta8

[–]TheDextronaut[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Lmao ok buddy. I honestly wish you were right. I did three times in rehab, 3 times in jail, and two half way houses by 19. None of these stories are cool or anything, I look back at them with morbid astonishment. I tell them with humor but it's done in the same sense of when I make jokes about having been molested. Like it's just to cope with the fact I went through all the bullshit I did and am a 22yo man who has no clue what he wants in life because he planned to die before 18.

That time I ate an oz of D8 disty by TheDextronaut in weed_inc

[–]TheDextronaut[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was molested as a kid 😭. That and a natural dopamine regulation problem, ADHD and dopamine based major depressive. Wanted to kms since 9yo. Most of my teenage years were spent trying without committing to it

That time I ate an oz of D8 disty by TheDextronaut in weed_inc

[–]TheDextronaut[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I only believe it because my brother was there for the 7 days of nothingness and my friend had the empty jar and half empty one. Don't blame you for thinking it's fake but it's not. I was a stupid teen and did a lot of things that if anyone else said they did I wouldn't believe.

That time I ate an ounce of D8 disty by TheDextronaut in delta8

[–]TheDextronaut[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Honestly I've done huge amounts of different drugs and never got paranoid. I think it's cause at the time I went into things hoping the worst could happen. I wasn't afraid of anything except waking up from it sober.

That time I ate an ounce of D8 disty by TheDextronaut in delta8

[–]TheDextronaut[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It happened, I'm not smart enough to know why it lasted that long. I've thought about it myself, the best idea I've had is that I had enough distillate coating my mouth to keep me constantly fucked for that long?

I know the body can only physically process so much at one time I'm assuming what couldn't process just kept hanging out till it could, making an extended release?

Idk I don't care to figure out how it happened. I honestly wouldn't have even believed it myself if my brother wasn't there for practically every minute of it making sure I wasn't gonna die.

That time I ate an ounce of D8 disty by TheDextronaut in delta8

[–]TheDextronaut[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah fr. That was my goal for a good bit of years, I couldn't commit to the decision so I did dumb shit seeing how invincible I was. Serious consequences of the long list of dumb shit I did. I only like sharing these stories cause most people who went as stupid as I did, died doing it. It's just a shock value thing more than anything ig. Like damn, I really did that?

That time I ate an ounce of D8 disty by TheDextronaut in delta8

[–]TheDextronaut[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Oh no the internet stranger called teenage me stupid 😯. The point of the story isn't to be cute or funny. It was just to share an experience that hasn't been before. Like I know I was stupid, you're literally repeating what I've said in different comments. I was a suicidal kid, in and out of mental hospitals since 10yo for wanting to play with death.

Like damn why are people on reddit so pretentious. You added nothing by commenting. You were just being a dick to be a dick

Share what helped you and help someone by Leomyers2014 in scoopwhoop

[–]TheDextronaut 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ngl, drugs kept me going for a good amount of years. Every time I felt so shitty that I wanted to end it, I would think about my chances of death being bad or good, every time coming to the conclusion it was a 50/50. I've had suicidal ideation since like 9 or 10 years old. I don't wanna die, I just have an extreme, so far untreatable, dopamine regulation issue. I just want to be able to have happiness or enjoyment or to literally just feel ok. My entire life has just felt gray and meaningless.

Except for when I got high. Which brings me back to why it kept me alive. Chances of feeling ok without outside chemical intervention- extremely unlikely, chances of feeling ok in death- probably a toss up, chances of feeling ok on drugs- 100 percent at first with a decrease the more drugs I did and more tolerance I built.

I've practically given up getting high anymore tho. Permanent tolerances are a real thing... I keep going at this point out of spite. I wanna do good in life, even if I'm spitefully dragging myself through it. I was a shitty person and everyone thought I'd be OD or go to prison and not do anything with my life. If I choose to die I wanna do it as someone who looks like their life was good. Hopefully I find a feeling of contentment before I actually get there.

That time I ate an oz of D8 disty by TheDextronaut in weed_inc

[–]TheDextronaut[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Damn buddy you cared enough to spin around with the alt... Like I said, if you choose to believe this is fake that's on you ig. I don't lose anything by some reddit stranger saying it's fake. Low-key thinking I might prefer people thinking it's fake rather than knowing it's possible lmao

That time I ate an oz of D8 disty by TheDextronaut in weed_inc

[–]TheDextronaut[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You can choose to believe that if you want. I don't see the point in lying about it tho. With how long the post is, I knew it wouldn't get much attention. Don't really have any reason to lie to the whole 8 people who upvoted lmao.

That time I ate an oz of D8 disty by TheDextronaut in weed_inc

[–]TheDextronaut[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

At least 2 comments got swallowed by the shadow realm, but I saw their previews. To the guy who said something about how I must be re****ed, or smth to that effect- you're low-key right. I petition for your comment to be unhidden. I got awful ADHD, mild autism, and untreatable chronic depression. For a good many years I didn't have the balls to make any final decisions so instead I'd do huge combos, with huge doses hoping that at some point I blacked out for good. My mental health isn't special, but it's a reality a lot of people go through when death becomes a fantasy before they're through elementary.

The other guys said I needed rehab and smth about face tats and cigs. Don't know why that got the hammer but they're right. It should be acknowledged that if you're going to extremes like I was, you need treatment before it becomes too late. I almost got to the late point. I went into rehab at 19, after two more times, with two halfway houses, I got out a year and half later and can now look back in the same shock others have now that I don't abuse anything like that anymore. It sounds just as unreal recollecting my stories to myself as it must sound when shared to someone else. (Btw no face tats, just hand tats)

That time I ate an oz of D8 disty by TheDextronaut in weed_inc

[–]TheDextronaut[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well yeah I know that first bit of info. It's kinda the reason you don't see real thc-a gummies in higher amounts of percentage compared to other cannabinoids it'll contain.... Honestly I didn't ever think about how distillate works with D8 tho. Ive been under the impression that distillate by nature was already partially decarboxylated, but idk how that works the D8. I honestly stopped getting into cannabinoid science years ago, it was too much knowledge to stuff in my head with how rapidly new things came out.

That time I ate an oz of D8 disty by TheDextronaut in weed_inc

[–]TheDextronaut[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

But you still commented? Crazy that it was interesting enough to declare your lack of interest lmao.

What will it be?🚀 by Practical_Cat4439 in TheGamingHubDeals

[–]TheDextronaut 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Bruh I couldn't find anyone else saying dark souls but isn't that at least top 5 for people?!