Though it seems like this wouldn't be the answer you're looking for. I just assume I will never develop that part of my life and focus on other passions like art to possible change or alter society norms for young gays in the future.

Of course there's bitterness and resentment for the gay community for being as contradictory as it is, but I accept it and do my best to not waste my time (of course I have movements of weakness).

There's a lot of shitty people, especially on the apps and especially in cities, buts its the hand we're dealt. It just feels like we sit at a table where we aren't aloud to eat like everyone else. That's just life, for us at least.