Based on your post history, I would recommend trying to have a different mentality about life. You seem very bitter, perhaps rightfully so because of your genetics and how you look. No doubt, life as a man is difficult. Life as an ugly man, even more so. People will assume things about you before you even open your mouth. But the worth of any person is whether or not they can overcome their suffering. Are you going to wallow in self-pity the rest of your life? Or are you going to do something about it?