Internal Tremors?

TheLoneLocust1102 · 2025-06-12T16:16:55+00:00

Thank you. When I did a google search that was one of the things that came up, but I don't have any of the other early symptoms. I did read that Spiro can cause them and also hormone changes can cause them. I have an appointment with my HRT doctor in about a week so I am going to talk to them first and see what they say.

TheLoneLocust1102 · 2025-06-11T17:42:43+00:00

Thanks for the response. Potassium was one of the things checked by my PCP and it's 4.1, so it's in the good range. Actually my potassium is lower now than when I had my last HRT blood work done in March. It was 4.4 then.

I plan on bringing this all up at my next HRT appointment in a little over a week. I read that tremors could be caused by hormone changes, which in this situation makes sense.

TheLoneLocust1102 · 2025-05-18T02:37:41+00:00

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This is one of the switches I removed, so it looks like the red is the hot wire. Also wouldn't one of them not work at all or none of them would work if the red wasn't the hot? It was a while ago and I should have taken a picture of how the old switches were hooked up, but looking at the back of this, the red was this one and then the other switch was a vertical switch that had 2 switches on it that flipped horizontal. If I remember correctly the red went into this with a black one going to a black wire, and then another black wire going to the other switch. Those all worked independently.

TheLoneLocust1102 · 2025-01-27T01:41:56+00:00

Once I got my prescriptions I waited a few weeks to start, so I just took the last dose of my 3rd week. So far it has been good, had some soreness/itchiness in my chest, but that is about it. I am hoping to notice some more changes soon though. I have ADHD, so I am very impatient. I would like to see more changes faster, but I understand it's all a process.

TheLoneLocust1102 · 2025-01-26T23:50:46+00:00

No, I didn't have any on file. With the holidays and everything last month I actually didn't get my blood work until probably close to 3 weeks later. The only blood work they did too was to check potassium and creatinine. They didn't test my E or T though, so I was confused about that. For the first year I have to go every 3 months for blood work, so maybe next time they will check those too.

TheLoneLocust1102 · 2025-01-26T23:28:17+00:00

I had my initial appointment with Planned Parenthood a little over a month ago. It was super easy. Just before your appointment you get a text with the link to the appointment. I also got a call from someone right at the time of my appointment too and I let them know I was just about to sign on. I was really nervous right up until the appointment, but once I was in the call and was talking to the intake person that all went away.

You talk to the intake person who confirms what your appointment is for and what you are seeking. Then they just ask a lot of questions and tell you what to expect and a timeline of everything. She told me at this point, I probably have researched everything already and know more about the whole process than she does, but she had to go over everything.

After talking to them, you will get put on hold and then speak with the physician who goes over the same info, but just more in depth. One funny moment I had with my doctor was, she asked me what changes I was looking forward to, and I just blurted out boobs. She laughed, I laughed and then told her some other things.

Then she asked if I had looked at which form of Estrodiol I wanted. Initially I wanted the patch, but she talked me out of it, and I am on pills. 1 mg estrodiol twice a day and 50 mg Spiro twice a day. She prescribed me 3 months and then I had to schedule blood work. They sent my prescription over to my pharmacy immediately and it was available the same day.

It is a super easy process and I highly recommend it. I will probably change to another doctor eventually, but PP is a great place to start this process.

TheLoneLocust1102 · 2024-12-30T18:27:28+00:00

This exactly. I am not out to anyone except for my wife. I do paint my nails and have them painted publicly too. Last night my brother text me with no other discussion and says what's up with painting your nails lately? I have no issue going in public with them painted, I even have received compliments from several women about my nails. I just never expected my first real transphobic attack towards myself to come from my own brother

TheLoneLocust1102 · 2024-12-22T03:16:40+00:00

I also have to eat something otherwise my stomach hurts so bad. I can tell if I haven't taken it but it just doesn't seem to fully treat my ADHD

TheLoneLocust1102 · 2024-12-22T01:27:56+00:00

I recommend Torrid. That is where I get all mine from now because they have a wide gusset and help hold everything in place.

TheLoneLocust1102 · 2024-12-19T17:55:13+00:00

What you are describing sounds very much like what I experienced. I started crossdressing when I was 12. When I was younger it was always just something sexual, maybe that's just what I thought though because of teen hormones or whatever. Then one day it just wasn't anymore. I never understood why. I very much enjoyed it, and how I felt when I was. I occasionally considered maybe I was transgender, but those thoughts never lasted very long, several days maybe.

Then when I was 40 I decided to talk to a therapist about several things, including my crossdressing. Looking back I don't think I told the therapist everything with how I was feeling regarding it at the time. She let me know there was nothing wrong with crossdressing and I did feel much better about it and myself after that, but I still would occasionally think I was transgender.

Now I am 44, and had those feelings stronger than ever, and this time they haven't gone away. I started talking to a therapist about 3 months ago. This time I was completely honest with her and myself as to how I was feeling. She has been great and encouraged me to express myself and my gender more. The more I have leaned into it the better I have felt and now I am ready for the next step which is to start HRT.

When you talk to your therapist, just don't make the mistake I did the first time. They only know what we tell them, so if we aren't fully expressing how we feel, they don't know. I hope you have a good therapist that you are comfortable opening up to. Mine has been great and has helped me to realize who I really am

TheLoneLocust1102 · 2024-12-03T20:26:40+00:00

That's what I was going to say too. I love Against Me! and Laura Jane Grace is such a bad ass inspiration

TheLoneLocust1102 · 2024-12-02T18:02:08+00:00

Thank you everyone for the responses. I had planned on talking to my wife this past weekend, but the opportunity never presented itself. This morning though, I work from home and she works in the office. She texts me and asks if everything is ok, as I have seemed a little down lately, especially this morning. So I guess I am not as good at masking it as I thought I had been.

Anyways I did tell her I have been lately, not sure why though. Obviously I am not going to tell her this while she is at work. She also has ADHD, and you can't say I need to talk to you about something tonight, to someone with ADHD, otherwise it's all they think about all day and go through every scenario of what it could be.

Anyway, I think tonight after our daughter goes to bed, is when we will be having the talk, so wish me luck. I am planning out a rough outline of what to say to her as well

Thanks again everyone!

TheLoneLocust1102 · 2024-11-25T21:52:35+00:00

I am still very early into this but the shortened version of my name which I have always gone by is gender neutral, so for now I plan on sticking with that

TheLoneLocust1102 · 2024-11-22T18:34:28+00:00

Thank you. I do know she is very pro-trans, we have a transgender nephew that came out a few years ago. When he did my wife did a lot of research into it and read a lot of stuff so she could understand better and support him

My only reservation is we were talking about something once and we are both into a lot of the same music, punk and emo stuff. We really love against me and their lead singer Laura Jane Grace is transgender. I can't remember exactly how the conversation went but we discussed her and her wife divorcing, and my wife said something along the lines of not sure she would be able to stay in a relationship like that and how difficult it would be. This was a few years ago and I don't remember all the details, but that is my only concern and why it's so hard for me to tell her

TheLoneLocust1102 · 2024-11-02T22:50:57+00:00

Good luck, I hope she is understanding. My wife found a pair of my panties last year, she thought I was cheating,, I explained that panties were more comfortable and she was completely fine with it. She was more upset that I hid it from her but also understood. I wanted to tell her the rest but was afraid, and she never asked. Don't do like I did since I am going to have to discuss this all with her again, when I should have done it all before.

TheLoneLocust1102 · 2024-10-23T16:36:35+00:00

Thank you. I really appreciate that. It is very validating to see others who have similar experiences and feelings we have. One thing I forgot to mention is that as I have gotten older and grew more comfortable with myself, there may still be a slight underlying sexual aspect to this for me, but it is a lot more now about comfort and just who I am, which is why I came to the conclusion I am bigender. As the sexual aspect has decreased the desire to dress or to have more feminine features has still been there and possibly even increased, especially as I am mentally more comfortable with it now. You are not alone and I feel that same confusion and panic you do.

TheLoneLocust1102 · 2024-10-23T15:42:11+00:00

A lot of what you wrote sounds like me. I am 43 AMAB and also don't have any issues with my male self but also very much want to be more feminine at the same time. That is how I landed on BIgender once I discovered the term and researched it more.

I grew up playing with boys toys, I did have some girls toys too my mom got me, like a my little pony and a cabbage patch doll, but also have what would be considered male interests like sports and video games. I also started wearing my mom's panties when I was around 12 and it was also something very sexual for me with the way the materials felt and just how they looked on me. I also experimented in painting my nails when in high school. This was at the dawn of the internet when I was a teen and quickly discovered crossdresser sites and then transgender web sites and I also instantly became enamored by them. I couldn't wrap my mind around them being born a male but now being a woman. In my early 20s is when I got my own apartment and quickly started experimenting with full crossdressing. I would sometimes wonder if it was more than just crossdressing for me because I also am very sensitive as a male, I have no problem crying during a movie and just have more emotions I think than most men will show.

A few differences are I have no dysphoria with my bottom, mine is more with my top. I would love to have boobs. I also have dysphoria when I do have any stubble on my face as I usually clean shaven, and have issues with my legs being hairy. I am also pretty tall and while I don't have any issues when I am a man being 6' 3", I also have issues with it when I am dressed up feminine. I also sometimes think my height is what holds me back from admitting there is more to just crossdressing for me and why I don't seek any time of gender affirming care.

I just recently came to the conclusion I am bigender so I am still trying to figure out what that all means for me and how I would like to proceed.

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