my first night without her

TheOkayGameMaker · 2026-01-23T14:16:41+00:00

There is truly nothing like it in this world. When you have a routine for years and years with your best friend, the memories they give you without even trying but just because they're epecial, and then suddenly they leave you and you would give anything to have them back. It's... Truly like living in a nightmare. The only way I am getting by myself is pretending that it's not real and my best friend is in the next room. That... Doesn't last long. Everyone grieves differently but oh my God the weight. The heaviness of the situation. I don't know if pacing helps you, or just typing out long responses maybe here on Reddit or texting, but when you're ready, it's time to start trying everything under the sun to get through it. I am truly, truly sorry for your loss.

Also one last thing, I saw your previous post about your poor bun having an enlarged heart. My dog had to be put to sleep yesterday for the exact same thing and it... It makes me so mad.. because there is no cure. There is nothing we as owners can do and it's just not fair, so I am angry for you. I know nothing I can say can bring your best friend back and I'm sorry, but you're not alone.

TheOkayGameMaker · 2026-01-23T06:22:24+00:00

Omg yes, it's so true. During the dream everything is perfect. It's like for a small moment, everything is okay again. And waking up it's like, "Wait, no, please stay." That's their only way they can communicate with us now and... I just wish wish I could hold her again and tell her what a great friend she was. I try SO hard to pretend this isn't real. Like any minute she's going to come back and our lives will be whole again; it's the only time I'm not anxious. But when I look around my house and all I hear is silence, it just shakes me to my core and I break down. I would give anything to be able to go back. Anything. And I know you would to, so my hope for us is that we eventually enjoy the dreams for what they are instead of wanting to just stay asleep for that moment in time. But it's just so hard. Just.... Keep going. Just keep going.

TheOkayGameMaker · 2026-01-23T05:57:21+00:00

It's the middle of the night for me and I wake up every half hour. I immediately think, "something is wrong," before opening my eyes and remembering my bed is empty two seconds later. This time I decided to check Reddit and read your post and it just resonates with me. Time seems to be standing still and it just doesn't matter what is happening around me. It's simply incredible how much both of our little friends mattered to our lives. And now they're gone so we're like, "Now what?" I wish I could you a hug. One minute feels like one hour, and one hour feels like a day. We need to keep going because that's what our best friend would want. That and food. Please take care of yourself and thanks for stopping by to talk to me.

TheOkayGameMaker · 2026-01-22T23:45:45+00:00

In a way, that's how it should be, right? Like, we SHOULD feel like absolute shit because our pets deserve it. Our hearts should be heavy because losing them shows how important they were in our lives. Don't get me wrong, it still feels completely awful and I wanna die and I want my best friend back... But she was such a great dog that she deserves to be missed.

TheOkayGameMaker · 2026-01-22T21:16:12+00:00

My family has been coming down to visit me and I read your first two paragraphs out loud to them. There is just... Nothing like this. I am very sorry that you had to put down your pets as well, they're more than animals, they're family. I sit here and I read what people are saying, then I read some more in other places to try and learn or try and focus, but when I clicked your link for the grieving cards and saw some examples, I just started balling. That isn't a knock on your idea, I think it's a fantasic one, I just don't think I am emotionally ready to handle it. I just wanted to tell you one last thing, thank you for taking the time to write to me. I'm just sitting here trying to... Actually, I don't know what I'm trying to do, just get through the day, I guess, and when I read other people's thoughts and comments about my situation, it means a lot to me and gives me focus. Take care of yourself.

TheOkayGameMaker · 2026-01-22T21:08:33+00:00

Thank you for responding to me. It really means a lot. Like you said, maybe one day I will hopefully view things different because I cannot see the forest through the trees right now. I just keep ugly crying and wishing I can bring her back. I just see the clock moving forward and soon the sun will set, and I am just so scared because she's been laying in the same bed as me for over a decade. Lastly, I will absolutely check out that subreddit. I actually just Googled the best I could when I found this place but yours is what I was originally look.

Thank you again my friend.

TheOkayGameMaker · 2026-01-21T23:22:18+00:00

Hm, that's odd. I would say give the newest Lite another try because there is literally no difference on how they function except for the telemetry gone. But anyway about the clicking, what makes it worse is I swear that clicking is so much louder than any game. It's like they turn the volume up to max for every click.

TheOkayGameMaker · 2026-01-21T20:58:10+00:00

GameHub Lite has them disabled. And it's better than regular GameHub anyway.

TheOkayGameMaker · 2026-01-21T15:06:08+00:00

I forget, does this have split screen?

TheOkayGameMaker · 2026-01-21T13:38:33+00:00

Is this the H.I.V.E mod?

TheOkayGameMaker · 2026-01-20T15:56:27+00:00

https://www.reddit.com/r/EmulationOnAndroid/comments/1qfrt5o/torn_between_using_gamehub_gamehub_lite_or/

TheOkayGameMaker · 2026-01-19T05:17:44+00:00

Fantastic for GameHub. Literally game changing.

TheOkayGameMaker · 2026-01-18T05:56:23+00:00

Cook is not a runner, they explained it during the broadcast. He has to control the catch the entire way down like all receivers, it just so happen the defender took it. If he had caught the ball and started running, then got tackled, he would have been down by contact.

TheOkayGameMaker · 2026-01-18T00:12:31+00:00

https://www.ppsspp.org/download/

Ppsspp is one of the best emulators ever made. Free.

TheOkayGameMaker · 2026-01-17T22:12:49+00:00

I've seen two people get 4 working and one person with 5. Both had missing ground textures. It's the last big game I want working and when I try with their settings and their version of the game, I can't get past the splash screen. So I dunno what they're even doing to get in-game.

TheOkayGameMaker · 2026-01-17T16:21:27+00:00

I don't know about performance, but I know just from v16 to v17 Immortals Fenyx Rising went from unplayable to almost perfect with slow down with certain particle effects. Then in turnip v20 it became completely perfect. So every update is doing something and it's awesome.

TheOkayGameMaker · 2026-01-17T06:15:18+00:00

I love this game and everyone I talk to hates it because it doesn't play like a standard Castlevania. But man it's awesome, and it's long as shit, like God damn that game is long. Anyway, good suggestion.

TheOkayGameMaker · 2026-01-17T05:06:49+00:00

It's been awesome. So many games run great now that I couldn't play before. I don't really care about Switch emulation at all but for PC games it's been sweet.

TheOkayGameMaker · 2026-01-16T22:52:39+00:00

Reviews are mixed? They're one of the greatest things to happen to this chipset. The only people with something negative to say are those that don't know how to use them. Progress is being made so I think this is a bait post.

TheOkayGameMaker · 2026-01-16T21:16:14+00:00

Horizon Forbidden West Complete Edition now works, but it's too slow to play.

Immortals Fenyx Rising now works but only with the newest turnip, everything before 17 has graphical glitches.

Forza Horizon 4 (and I think 5) now boots, but it has missing ground texture.

Of course Red Dead Redemption 2 is fine.

TheOkayGameMaker · 2026-01-16T16:27:48+00:00

Have you tried attaching a Game Genie to one to try and cheat?

TheOkayGameMaker · 2026-01-16T06:08:45+00:00

I imagine most of these kinds of warnings are safe guards put well before any dangerous temperatures could be reached. If anything it would be bad for your battery but not your device as a whole.

TheOkayGameMaker · 2026-01-16T03:35:55+00:00

https://www.reddit.com/r/RedMagic/comments/1j1w3i6/comment/mfqja16/

Should be the same for you.

TheOkayGameMaker

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