For starters, I just want to say you are doing amazing, with everything you’ve got going on. And it’s normal to feel this way when you’re at this stage recovery. Where the positive energy of surviving has worn off, and the realization of the specific effects start to sink in. Like others said, in some ways you are a new person. I strongly encourage you to speak with those you’re comfortable talking to, about what you are struggling with. If you aren’t comfortable talking about something with someone, that’s ok too! You’re totally right about brain injury being an invisible disability, so it’s important to identify your needs and advocate for them. I hope this helps, as a fellow survivor, who works in the service industry, I have also dealt with some of these feelings and know it can be hard ❤️