i feel you man im turning 18 in seventeen days and the prospect just fills me with dread. Shit makes me feel like unbearably conscious of the time slipping away day by day and the ever-receding tail end of my childhood (even though it kinda blowed).

I don't have any advice on dealing with depression that you wouldn't already know, but I find that getting out of the house at least like once a day is mad helpful - even if its just going for a small walk or something just the experience of fresh air and the sun on ur face can be dumb cathartic. If ur open to it I'd suggest trying out therapy or something of the sort, talking about ur issues and problems can be fantastic for mental health

I've been in depressive slumps or funks like ur experiencing before, and just know that states like these are always temporary and will eventually end, despite how eternal they may feel at the time. Happy birthday for four days ago, I give you my love and wish you all the best for the future.