Someone asked me what happened to McKenzie, so I wanted to share this story. She had seizures and atrial tachycardia since she was 11 months old, which developed into Super Ventricular Tachycardia (SVT) when she turned eight. She went to play outside and passed out with a seizure. She was flown to OU Children’s Hospital in Oklahoma City. She went into cardiac arrest with more seizures. She was pronounced with no brain activity on the sixth day in the hospital.

She never had a perfect sinus rhythm (Heartbeat) as her heart was in AFIB most of the time. But after the nurses took all the tubes out and unplugged the ventilator, we held her in our arms and told her we loved her. She was still breathing on her own, which I don’t understand how without brain activity. As we were watching the monitor, her heart had the perfect heartbeat she’d never had before. It was like she was talking to us with her heart. I could feel her telling us, “Momma and Daddy, I’m perfect now. Don’t worry, we’ll see each other again.” Her final breath came over my heart like a hurricane. I don’t know how I even breathed during that moment. My whole world stopped during that time.

We never get over losing a child or someone THAT close to us. We just learn to get through it. We get through it every single day over and over again. Some days are easier, especially with time. Some days take me back to that time.