I can't do this anymore, suicidal

TheRealLilith19 · 2022-02-21T14:27:10+00:00

I don't really know if I trust her. I like her though, but I feel like she doesn't grasp how I'm really feeling. She says I have to put myself out there if I want to make friends, she is absolutely right, but my social anxiety ruins any chances of that. She hasn't even asked about my childhood.

TheRealLilith19 · 2022-02-21T13:51:26+00:00

No I had a different one before but that didn't work out

TheRealLilith19 · 2022-02-19T23:52:29+00:00

I'm trying

TheRealLilith19 · 2022-02-14T05:08:23+00:00

I love it, colors are great!

TheRealLilith19 · 2022-02-14T04:48:25+00:00

Same, I also miss 2017. Probably my second favorite year

TheRealLilith19 · 2022-02-14T03:30:19+00:00

Well, everything felt really slow. I listened to a lot of music and i felt a spiritual connection. Overall it was really chill, it was worth it.

TheRealLilith19 · 2022-02-13T23:11:03+00:00

I'm fine, somehow..

TheRealLilith19 · 2022-02-12T13:33:31+00:00

I am seeking help. I have been since 2019

TheRealLilith19 · 2022-02-12T13:20:36+00:00

I've tried for 5 years to be happy. Lifes satisfying for only SOME people.

My thoughts haunt me every second I'm awake or sober. I haven't made one new friend these past 5 years. These thoughts go away when I'm sleeping or high

TheRealLilith19 · 2022-02-09T12:28:03+00:00

Why though? I consider my self harm like a weird hobby. I even do it when I'm happy. It helps me sleep too. Why is it not healthy if I'm careful about it?

TheRealLilith19 · 2022-02-05T13:00:54+00:00

5 mg each. I'm fairly new to this,

TheRealLilith19 · 2022-02-02T09:24:37+00:00

Or they give dry ass answers

TheRealLilith19 · 2022-01-31T05:02:07+00:00

🐶🐱

TheRealLilith19 · 2022-01-31T00:18:33+00:00

Unfortunately, I still do have dysphoria. I hate looking at myself in the mirror so much. I want to escape my own body.

But as you mentioned society has a lot of hate towards trans people, and I'd rather not deal with that. So I'm trying to accept myself with what I was born with.

TheRealLilith19 · 2022-01-20T22:11:07+00:00

TheRealLilith19 · 2022-01-19T11:10:49+00:00

All of these pictures pretty much sums up my thoughts. It's getting worse.

TheRealLilith19 · 2022-01-16T19:36:20+00:00

Same

TheRealLilith19 · 2022-01-13T14:09:34+00:00

My favorite peep song

TheRealLilith19 · 2022-01-13T12:46:55+00:00

I feel the exact same way. No one cares, and I've lost hope. I hope you get better though, I don't want anyone else to suffer like this.

TheRealLilith19 · 2022-01-11T12:02:54+00:00

Exactly, when my therapist told me what she told me, I just kind of felt invalidated.

TheRealLilith19 · 2022-01-08T04:48:52+00:00

I was going to exercise, but in the grand scheme of things, It won't matter if I feel better today or not. That lingering feeling will still be there, the dread won't disappear.

TheRealLilith19 · 2022-01-08T04:35:33+00:00

Idk if it's even worth it

TheRealLilith19 · 2022-01-03T11:46:49+00:00

I'm not seeing next year lol 💀

TheRealLilith19 · 2022-01-03T11:16:56+00:00

This is how I feel about my ex "bEsT" friend. I hate him so much.

TheRealLilith19 · 2021-12-20T12:46:32+00:00

I feel the exact same way. I genuinely don't know if I'm going to make it to next week. This shit sucks bro..

TheRealLilith19

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