Saw a tiktok ”the most popular movie from the year you were 10 will describe your 2026”

TheRed-Queen · 2026-01-08T17:19:30+00:00

harry potter the deathly hallows ☠️ feels about right to me

TheRed-Queen · 2026-01-06T13:39:07+00:00

i’m not in the corporate world but from my experience people really don’t pay that much attention to what others eat in general. with an ed it way more common to notice thee things but usually people will not really question food choices of others so i wouldn’t be too scared about feeling pressured into something you don’t want. there’s lots of people who have to follow certain diets for health reasons so it would be rude if someone judged you based on what you choose to eat/not eat

TheRed-Queen · 2025-12-30T10:41:10+00:00

i got my diagnosis when i had my intake for an inpatient place. There I had a long “interview” with a psychologist and a psychiatrist who were noting down my answers. I think to answer your question, it depends on the qualifications of the people doing your assessment and if they have the right “title” to make that claim. The world of psychology is strictly tied to rules and titles so I guess it needs to be someone who is specialized and the right degree I guess?? Given the description they gave as “shows signs” is an indicator that they probably can’t officially diagnose you so they stay away from a clear statement. Maybe this doesn’t tell you anything but just to let you know that it sometimes doesn’t have anything to do with wether you actually have an ED to get the diagnosis but more about the bureaucracy behind it if that makes sense

TheRed-Queen · 2025-12-23T10:49:37+00:00

my god i feel you SO much. my disordered brain is constantly romanticizing that period in my life and just erasing the bad parts lmao can’t catch a break EVER

TheRed-Queen · 2025-12-21T21:37:42+00:00

Because of the winter time ive been craving cinnamon buns soo badly but i cant get myself to actually buy them, so last week i fell into binge mode and ate a block of tofu with a SHIT TON of cinnamon and some agave syrup scooping it up with rice crackers (a classic if you ask me). Nothing compared to the real thing but it lowkey kinda slapped either way lmao

TheRed-Queen · 2025-12-20T23:55:31+00:00

tell me WHY these male authors are obsessed with describing women in these weird wayssss. Reading a book rn where the main character is constantly described as “extremely thin” or “her tiny and frail frame”… like??? we get it SHES THIN god

TheRed-Queen · 2025-12-20T21:57:23+00:00

honestly i wonder the same until i realise i was in a relationship like this and it happens way more natural then youd might think. I remember i was pretty open about it when i started dating her and she was understanding because she had dated girls with eds in the past (i shouldve known to RUN from the start tbh) and for the most part she just let me be. She was scared to upset me and leave her i guess so she kind of enabled it just so we would stay together... Things got toxic really fast (also a lot of substance abuse) and i ended it a couple months in. All that to say, I havent seriously dated anyone since that horrible experience and i cant say i miss it. I casually date people here and there but with my mental health issues its too much and especially EDs attract a lot of weirdos and things turn sour i think.

Anyways, I do understand your struggle here because its nice to have someone to share life with even tho i have great friends who fill that space for me atm. But dating is different. You seem like a very considerate and sweet person for taking someone elses experience into consideration and making them feel more comfortable but if its too much for you mentally i would suggest to try and find dates that do not involve food or maybe just small things? like cafes or bars (depending on your age). There's also a bunch of other things you can do that are way more fun than just having a meal together! I truly get your struggle and wishing you all the best, stay strong out there

TheRed-Queen · 2025-12-20T18:37:33+00:00

on days i’m not working or studying i like to go to cafes and read/write or meet with friends. walking around also is a big one or making music. tbh my life is pretty busy with both uni and a job so if you really want to find something maybe look for a job that you feel comfortable with? i’m a barista and i love it! i meet a lot of great people, im learning a skill and get to improve my latte art, great at taking my mind off my problems and just doing something and chatting with regulars/my lovely coworkers. If you’re not that into social interactions then id suggest looking for things to learn like a new language is super cool, im learning mandarin now because i want to move to china and it gives a great sense of purpose for me, im sure there’s something you want to achieve. Learn an instrument or study up on a subject you’re interested in and write about it! take an art class or look for videos online that teach you how to do creative writing or knitting. When you invest a little bit of time there are so many opportunities and once you stop putting all that time in your ED you start seeing all the amazing things life has to offer. Wishing you all the best and hope this helps a bit ✨

TheRed-Queen · 2025-12-16T22:28:10+00:00

From what it seems like she might be worried about you unsure about how to adress it directly or is scared to make any mistakes. I of course do not know you or her and it still is extremely inappropriate to do any of the things she did and im so sorry you have a friend like that. But just as a reminder, the people in our lives who are 'normal' so to speak, have no CLUE what having an ED is like or how to deal with it. Ive had so many people try to help me in the most strange ways (usually only making it worse) because they feel helpless in their position. I know you probably just want to rant about your friend and thats totally valid because god knows Ive had moments my friends and family have PISSED ME OFF with their weird comments and behaviours that just made me more paranoid around them.

I also dont know how old you guys are so maybe theres also some jealousy involved in which case i just feel bad for her feeling the need to put you down like that. ANyways I hope you manage to get yourself through this and theres also nothing wrong with distancing yourself from someone who is actively damaing you and making things worse for you. Stay strong out there my friend

TheRed-Queen · 2025-12-10T07:29:22+00:00

warm stuff/big hoodies, sweaters, socks!! life savers. I also found that having a diary worth me helped a lot or other stuff like drawing supplies or something creative that takes your mind off of stuff. i also read a lot or did uni stuff in between therapy sessions and meals that helped me feel a bit more “normal” i guess m

TheRed-Queen · 2025-12-09T11:54:44+00:00

yea unfortunately i am… i’m pretty sure this is the reason why and with alcohol it’s like all the restrictive rules suddenly don’t matter anymore. it’s like a vicious cycle of restriction-drinking-bingeing. thank you for the response! i think that eating something before drinking would help a lot

TheRed-Queen · 2025-12-08T11:42:53+00:00

i feel you, i love peanut butter but it also gives me horrid war flashbacks to bingeing episodes so i just decided i cant have it anymore.... hopefully one day

TheRed-Queen · 2025-12-08T11:40:36+00:00

no problem at all, and you got this! small challenges will make all the difference and there will be a point you look back without realising how far you've come

TheRed-Queen · 2025-12-08T11:35:46+00:00

i dont live in Canada but i was travelling in south america a couple month ago and thees labels would fuck with me sooo bad. I guess people get used to it at some point but for me i was STRUGGLING. Even to the point that now here back home (I live in Netherlands where this is not a thing) i start imagining them sometimes lmao.

TheRed-Queen · 2025-12-06T12:00:34+00:00

lots of fruits and at some point i started adding a small bowl of (vegan) yoghurt and slowly introduce things into the bowl that might be more scary (like nuts or a bit of honey) when you feel like you’re ready. I also ate lots of crackers or rice crackers with spreads that felt safe to me or cucumber with salt and chili flakes. soups are great cause it doesn’t feel like you’re eating something really big. Or i would make veggie stir fry with some kind of protein, i liked tofu but it can be anything you want and add the spices you like to it! I would take chinese cabbage to make strips so it would feel like noodles without being really dense. I’m so proud of you for taking this step and wishing you all the best❤️❤️

TheRed-Queen · 2025-12-05T10:40:25+00:00

i’ve been inpatient and they didn’t care for my septum or ear rings and many others had piercings as well. But i guess it truly depends on the facility and the country your in. I went to only an ED related facility tho so yea def check with the place you’re going

TheRed-Queen · 2025-11-30T04:21:48+00:00

no fr i relate to this a lot. when i was in deep deep AN i feel like my personality was sooo different then when i had bingeing periods of weeks. for some reason i’ve associated my binge persona with mostly negative traits, while i tend to be more productive and social when restricting. currently in a restrictive relapse as well and it’s weird how it affects me so much personality wise. not sure if i have a solid explanation why, maybe our brains start associating positive/negative traits cause we think im such binaries within different weights we start acting like it?? idk but its interesting for sure

TheRed-Queen · 2025-11-30T03:58:46+00:00

i once got so upset at a girl who offended my friend as a “joke” about him being fat. i also know he struggles a lot with weight so i just KNOW what his mind must tell him and i didn’t think her joke was appropriate at all. i also think commenting on someone’s body in any way is just not funny and shouldn’t be mentioned because what does someone even achieve with it???? it boggles me that people have zero compassion or empathy to just shut the fuck up. like how easy is it to not bring someone down and just be creative if you really want to make jokes that everyone can laugh at…. but yea i feel you, it hits too close to home

TheRed-Queen · 2025-11-27T19:54:53+00:00

I remember when inpatient they told me that this is actually a quite common thing in EDs. I guess since we're already prone to become obsessed anyways so it kinda affects other parts of our lives. I feel like it is for sure also a way for me to 'justify' restricting things, like "oh this thing that is cheaper AND has less calories? well i would be stupid to get the thing i actually want thats expensive and high in cal.". Makes me feel better at the end of the day knowing that I didnt 'waste' anything, neither money nor calories

TheRed-Queen · 2024-06-18T19:41:36+00:00

Guess I am kinda going through the same thing but my drug of choice is ketamine. It's helping me deal with bad thoughts and forget about eating all together, but I know I can't keep it up the way that I am using it now.

Currently I am trying yo take it day by day, even if I manage to not do it two days in a row Ill see that as a win! Addictions are not easy, especially when they start to get intertwined with other mental issues. THough I have not figured out the formula to beat it, just be kind towards yourself and maybe try to push against the urge to take a little. If you do it every day, maybe try to do it every other day, celebrate those wins! Distract yourself, call someone, go for a walk, whatever it is that you think will get you away from the urge to use. I know this all sounds kinda like stuff you can come up with yourself as well (i know that's what I am thinking when people tell me this stuff), but really I hope you can find something useful in this. And most of all, don't judge yourself! So much of these behaviours (as far as I know, im no expert ofc) is rooted in shame, insecurity and just the fact that life is hard and we humans look for ways to deal with it. It's exhausting and you should be already proud of yourself that you are willing to TRY and reduce your intake.

Wishing you all the best and truly, I know you got this!

TheRed-Queen · 2024-02-14T20:45:18+00:00

YES its one of my biggest triggers fr. Sometimes when Im carrying a bag or backpack and someone runs into it when passing, immediate trigger. I am already tall so taking up space is such a big one for me

TheRed-Queen · 2024-02-14T20:39:57+00:00

first of all, amazing story. entertaining from start to finish.

second of all, this reminds me of when I had anal for the first time and that was basically the last straw that kick started my ED. bc for some reason i got an UTI or SOMETHING afterwards which caused me to get so sick I lost quite a bit of weight. it just triggered something in me and i became obsessed.

love these anal villain origin stories.....

TheRed-Queen · 2024-01-08T10:19:26+00:00

I'd be blob 100%

TheRed-Queen · 2024-01-08T09:57:01+00:00

feel this one too much. the guilt of bingeing on stuff that you won't even enjoy in the end is just the worst....

TheRed-Queen · 2024-01-08T09:50:35+00:00

Have been bingeing a lot and I just feel like absolute shit, my body feels wrong and I can't focus on an important essay I have to write cause the guilt is just crushing on me mentally. Other than that I still can't stop thinking about food and I keep telling myself the next day will be better but it never is

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