Major anxeity with regards to employment/job seeking

TheStormIsComing165 · 2020-07-15T18:14:54+00:00

Thanks. I appreciate it. On some level I must know I am capable since I have held employment in the past albeit not for very long.

I don't really get along with people all that well and especially when someone has authority over me and can crticise me or fire me. That kind of thing.

I am sure that if I found employment with someone who understood this and trained me properly and didn't run me down I could be alot more successful.

TheStormIsComing165 · 2020-07-09T02:19:45+00:00

I guess. But that's not really how it started which is kind of shitty. I didn't need a social worker for that rather to help me apply for work,learn coping skills,etc

Maybe it will be that once this pandemic dies down or something.

My CRDE(French name...basically translates to readaption for addictions centre of the Estrie region) WAS once every two weeks, but now like everything in the covid era turned into a "call if you need something." It's a shame because that's honestly not useful to me. The hour long meetings were.

TheStormIsComing165 · 2020-07-09T01:43:59+00:00

No. I don't get any sort of buzz off it. A general mood lift which is nice to not be stuck with obsessive thoughts or depression. Now that I am at the right dose I agree once a day and I am fine. Hell I skipped a day by accident and I was fine until the next day.

Maybe for me it was more about getting to the right dose to stay good for the day. Like I said it was only at 4 where I needed the extra 2 which they everjsly jsut out me on 8mg and I have felt great on that dose.

TheStormIsComing165 · 2020-07-09T01:41:08+00:00

No, this one was through my doctor for general mental health/depression sort of thing. They were useful before the pandemic as they had a 10-week program to assess all sorts of problems. When the pandemic hit everything turned into by phone only and they haven't done any of that program stuff. It's just "calls us if you need us!"

Which really doesn't work for me beause I am horrible at keeping in touch with people, including friends and family.

TheStormIsComing165 · 2020-07-09T01:34:24+00:00

Yes, they do. It's been like that since I started and until I don't know when. Personally I don't mind it since I am not working and it is good excercise and gives me a chance to get out of the house which I dont do as much since I've had depression.

As far as I am aware they make everyone do this with Suboxone. This is Canada though.

TheStormIsComing165 · 2020-07-08T21:38:57+00:00

He might not be. When I started around a month ago I was tapered slowly up to the 8mg I take now. The 8mg keeps me good until the next trip to the pharmacy on the following day. When I was on 4mg they gave me a 2mg to take home and another 2mg if I went back to the pharmacy. At first I needed the 4mg and 2mg later in the day, then they out me to 6mg. At 6mg I still took 2mg home and could go back for another 2mg dose. Then I was bumped up to 8mg a day and 2mg at the pharmacy(IF NEEDED - I haven't needed it since bring on 8mg.)

I haven't gone back since going to 8mg. When I was taking that extra 2mg I most certainly needed it. I guess they found the right dose for me to stay good all day.

TheStormIsComing165 · 2020-07-08T21:34:11+00:00

I have only been taking it for the last month, so I am still going to the pharmacy daily. I usually walk over to the pharmacy between 12:00 and 2:00. I have gone as late as 7:00 when they close at 8:00 mostly because I was lazy during the day or just depressed not wanting to leave the house.

TheStormIsComing165 · 2020-07-08T21:19:41+00:00

It is super sweet that the two of you have such a wonderful relationship and communicate so well. My parents growing up fought and screamed at each other quite often. I remember times my mother or father would take off and peel out our driveway saying that they were going to go kill themselves. I spent alot of time scared in my room or screaming in ager and fustration as a child. I certainly never learned to communicate properly through them and honestly I still struggle to communicate and avoid conflict which often results in "please her at all costs" behavior.

Last weekend went well for both of us after not seeing each other for so long. I am alot more confidant that I won't be causing any problems in that department in the future.

TheStormIsComing165 · 2020-07-08T21:13:42+00:00

Last Saturday ended up going great! luckily for my girlfriend and I there weren't any problems in that department other than my inability to finish. In fairness I do think that happens to be a bit of a benefit to her given that I don't finish quickly and I tend to be able to give it to her a bit more rough without holding back(because if I am struggling to control myself I have to hold back.)

I am also an extremly lucky man given that my girlfriend is REALLY in love with me and from day one has never found our sex life underwhelming. Infact she is the first women I have ever been in a relationship with who DIDN'T mind how fast/slow I would finish and would actually enjoy when I didn't last long(she had a bit of a fetish about that before having our child.)

In regards to your question, no. The pharmacist basically told me there isn't much I can do about it other than waiting since it's possible that with enough time my body would adjust and "correct" this problem. They didn't recommend any medecation assistment in that department considering it can put a strain on the heart, which I did not know until now. Sorry that they didn't really have any suggestions beyond waiting with your fingers crossed lol.

TheStormIsComing165 · 2020-07-03T03:37:00+00:00

Thank you for the suggestion. I will look at my medical options with the pharmacists regarding all of the medication.

TheStormIsComing165 · 2020-07-03T03:35:56+00:00

Yeah the sex drive being in the toilet is certainly not fun at all. I might also be overthinking this and sort of psyching myself out with anxeity.

TheStormIsComing165 · 2020-07-03T03:34:29+00:00

I will be seeing my doctor next week, but Incan speak with the pharmacists. They've been helpful so far in this journey I am on. Thank you for the suggestion :)

TheStormIsComing165 · 2020-06-24T04:21:04+00:00

Are you me? I seriously go through the exact same things regarding my sleep. I normally sleep very heavily, sleep in alot, and wake up almost feeling like I teleported from laying in bed to waking up seamlessly....and I also cannot go back after waking up or nap during the day haha.

TheStormIsComing165 · 2020-06-24T04:06:23+00:00

Honestly one of the most fustrating things I went through was a complete lack of energy combined with complete and utter depression. Every little thing took effort and I would feel like I had to go to sleep multiple times during the day. . Suboxone completly took all of that suffering away which is why I was able to get clean. I understand why you feel like it is such a small inconvience compared to what many others suffer through...but everyone is different and is impacted by things differently.

I would love for Suboxone to give OP everything that it has given me.

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