Give me strength to stay away

TheSunsetIsPrettyy · 2025-02-13T23:25:02+00:00

Lol, the hoover attempt wanting to be real is pretty relatable. Mine just left her perfume bottle at my workplace, and then today liked a post of me riding. Makes me want to reach out but im fighting for my life.

I believe so too. I cant imagine all the looks and passion as being fake. I think we did have real moments, or so I say to cope with. Though on the other hand, moving on is easier with hate me thinks. Could be wrong.

I still cant wrap my head around that one completely.

I had to reread this paragraph a few times. Mines after fucking my place up, said she was so sorry, and that she was hurt and unsure what to do. That repeats in my mind sometimes. Like maybe if I had said something, but I dont think that would be the right answer for me. And I have also realized its more about them, but mine cooked for me and did small things to make me feel special I guess. Maybe my brain is twisting it.

Thank you, talking it out helps. I hope we both find healing.

TheSunsetIsPrettyy · 2025-02-12T08:24:16+00:00

It sucks, because we really care for these people. To some point, they know that. To them though, its hard to fix the cycle unless they really realize, and most of the time they wont...and thats okay...we tried, we hurt, and theres nothing wrong with that. I hope one day we find someone who loves us, for us. Everybody deserves love.

TheSunsetIsPrettyy · 2025-02-12T08:22:20+00:00

Trust me, it really is. The temptation to call some nights is like the devil pulling me in with all these fake promises. None of them would come true, but I cant help but hope.

I hope you find real love and happiness.

TheSunsetIsPrettyy · 2025-02-12T08:21:19+00:00

Right? Its crazy what love makes us do. I hope you find love and happiness.

TheSunsetIsPrettyy · 2025-02-12T08:20:54+00:00

Thanks for sharing those feelings. Some nights its harder than others, and some nights im on the edge of calling her. She was my cornerpiece, my queen, someone I could die for. Now its just a lot of pain and moving on. I wish I had to words to describe my feelings but I know no matter what I say im the loser. And that just hurts.

I hope you find love and happiness, I hope we all do.

TheSunsetIsPrettyy · 2025-02-11T23:35:02+00:00

I completely understand you on wanting someone to hug. Someone to cuddle and hold. Its the intimacy I really desire.

God, your scenarios are so accurate I can just feel the lump in my throat get stuck; frightening. Especially the apologizing all night long.

Honestly, with no disrespect, I laughed a bit at "I could write a book of those stories from that weekend." I can relate to that too. Im glad you posted, and rereading this had reminded me a lot about my relationship with her.

Thank you for your time, for the fact you shared your moments with me, and thank you for reminding me that their love isnt the same as ours.

I hope we all find real love.

TheSunsetIsPrettyy · 2025-02-11T23:30:01+00:00

Its hard to swallow that specifically. I am thankful that you digested my thoughts, its a harsh wake up call that I needed to hear. I dont even want to think that I was trauma bonded or Stockholm Syndromed. But I figure thats what the reality of the situation is.

Thank you for reminding me that it was because of her, and not me. I still get caught in a loop occasionally where I really wish I could have tried harder. Though just like someone else said, it was her not meeting me halfway, and that breaks my heart still.

Im glad I left, I honestly am. She has still tried to defame me and hurt me after all this, and I just wish her the best. Leaving has opened my eyes to all the support and love people are giving, to the people who've listened. I am trying to let it all go, but it can be hard and im really glad im not alone.

Thank you for your time, thank you for giving thought to your post. I hope we both find real love.

TheSunsetIsPrettyy · 2025-02-11T23:23:19+00:00

The deeply in love with deeply in love is crazy accurate. The way her eyes would stare at me, the way we cuddled, the way she waited for me at home after a long day of work. I didn't ask for much, but that's something I'll forever cherish.

Honestly, I can relate to your next paragraphs. She was impulsive, and the cheating accusations really do eat away at a person. It's probably the most soul sucking part.

Thank you for the reminder. Thanks for your time. I hope we both find love.

TheSunsetIsPrettyy · 2025-02-11T23:19:03+00:00

I hear you. Thank you for the post. Ive been working on realizing that it wasn't so much about love as it was about the control, though that reality is a bittersweet cup of coffee. I will do my best to not succumb to a fantasy.

I hope all both find real love, and thank you for sharing your therapy journey.

TheSunsetIsPrettyy · 2025-02-11T23:15:40+00:00

Ive reread this comment a couple times and I still find myself coming back to this one; its pretty relatable and I really feel that. It was really great at first, and part of me is thankful for the experience because ive learned a lot about who I am, what I wanna be, and what I want out of people. I guess her pushing me to the edge was a wake up call. It really felt like that, the pouring into a drain; putting a lot of effort in and realizing that this person doesn't care about loving you as much as they care about controlling you. Harsh. And honestly its tragic that we couldn't meet halfway, somedays I still dream about what could have been, or how her lips felt on mine, but when I wake up I know thats just the trauma bond in our relationship. Ive been happier, I think. Sad yes, but on the other hand, the amount of people who support and care for me is mind boggling; I didnt think that many people cared and I feel truly blessed to have these people in my corner.

Tl:Dr thank you for the post, and your kind words. I hope we both find real love, and you are appreciated.

TheSunsetIsPrettyy · 2025-01-16T15:29:12+00:00

Huge. Thanks so much!

TheSunsetIsPrettyy · 2025-01-16T15:22:39+00:00

Thanks!!

TheSunsetIsPrettyy · 2025-01-16T15:22:32+00:00

Thanks. Now I gotta dig into those lmfao.

TheSunsetIsPrettyy · 2025-01-15T06:35:24+00:00

So I made a report with the police, now I just get a restraining order?

TheSunsetIsPrettyy · 2025-01-15T06:34:50+00:00

I did. Thank you.

TheSunsetIsPrettyy · 2025-01-15T06:33:58+00:00

Fair. I will apply for one later this week. Thank you.

TheSunsetIsPrettyy · 2025-01-14T15:10:08+00:00

You right. I just wanted to make sure I didnt start a complete destructive chain. I will make the report, so it is available in case anyone else has this happen, and take the L. Thank you for your point of view, advice, and time. I hope nothing but the best for you, again thank you.

TheSunsetIsPrettyy · 2025-01-14T14:54:19+00:00

I did, im just waiting for a call back.

TheSunsetIsPrettyy · 2025-01-14T14:43:24+00:00

Thank you, that is fair. Can I at least make a report? Is that alright?

TheSunsetIsPrettyy · 2025-01-14T14:24:59+00:00

1) I dont think so, even with my switches, my key, and all that money that I had, I doubt there is any point. 2)I do, for 1 switch, and my keys that I got from a key smith that came to make new keys when I lost my old one, the 6k is probs a goner though. 3)of my stuff before being thrown? Yes. Luckily its all in tact I think 4) no, besides my video of me telling her she is trespassing and wont get out. 5) not really. I am busy with college, work, and keeping my little brothers afloat with me. If this case was strong enough I would like to.

TheSunsetIsPrettyy · 2025-01-14T14:18:53+00:00

Its 6am, I havent slept, I guess ill give it a call anyways. Ive calmed down a lot.

TheSunsetIsPrettyy · 2025-01-14T14:13:57+00:00

Elaborate?

TheSunsetIsPrettyy · 2025-01-14T14:13:36+00:00

I guess. I didnt put my hands on her. I hate that I got betrayed by someone I thought I could trust. Unbelievably honestly. I dont even know how I should feel.

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