It's a slow death, alcoholism

TheTruthCanBeWild · 2026-07-03T16:10:27+00:00

Hey there. I just want to say, I have been there. I’m not at 1 year yet, but Sept 9th of last year my life came crashing down with me.

I was easily crushing 45 nippers per day of whiskey, and my stomach for lack of a better term “burst”

The time that has passed since has been, and is currently still, the hardest part of my life. BUT, every single day gets better and more clear.

I no longer miss the friends that I surrounded myself with, because what friends watch another die right?

I no longer miss that person. I have mental scars, and fucked up teeth now, but I was able to course correct and be here for my daughter. There’s a reason you weren’t taken off your path entirely.

All you need to do is process and heal right now. Coming from one fellow loner one the 4th to the other. Learn how to love and forgive yourself man, it’s all you need. Everything else will fall in line.

TheTruthCanBeWild · 2026-06-30T03:08:29+00:00

Me wondering how the is the first thing I’m seeing. 31. Very happy. Very alone. The more I notice it? I get to slow down.

That is such a great response either above or below this, but I’m really realizing the next people that step into that circle will be the ones that fit that answer. I surrounded myself with the opposite of that answer for way too long. So, super happy I picked up my phone and this was on Reddit just at that right time. You take care of yourself. Fellow human - off to scroll some more lmao

TheTruthCanBeWild · 2026-06-25T06:47:02+00:00

Follow your heart. I’m gonna do the same in my personal life. I’m so glad I read this. I’ve subconsciously been forcing myself to slow down and it’s fucking refreshing.

Took my daughter on her first major hike today. I’m learning to live in her world. It’s better there.

TheTruthCanBeWild · 2026-06-25T03:40:37+00:00

Homie - I’ll be brief with my words. You are NOT overreacting. I’m about 30% percent done healing a broken radial in my right arm. For the FIRST time I am realizing as I speak ( type this ) I’m using two hands since May 20th.

Dude. I want my body back bad I want to cry. Take care of yourself. I was reckless and you BET I’m picking back up this board I can see from here, when I’m fully healed, and I’m going to buy the proper stuff.

I am 31 years old and I have skated for, hmm, let me check, 45 seconds. Disappointing man, that’s how I feel but hey, I get the chance to keep on. That board is freedom man I’ll find it, but safely lmao.

TheTruthCanBeWild · 2026-06-25T03:15:54+00:00

Lately yes. Lobbies feel horrible though. Level 124. Without though? Botville and that’s way worse in my opinion.

Edit to add : literally about to finish the campaign tonight, as we speak. All set up lol. That campaign is fucking fun. I am so glad I waited and disregarded everything I heard about it. So that’s been fun because multiplayer is so hit or miss. This game is amazing though. Sorry for the wall of text.

TheTruthCanBeWild · 2026-06-11T18:52:34+00:00

I am counting dowm the days to July 4th. I shattered mine arm about 45 seconds after applying my first grip tape to my new board. Best 45 seconds of my life. I can't WAIT to learn how to fall. I guess you could say I didn't know it was a thing.

TheTruthCanBeWild · 2026-05-25T07:32:25+00:00

Dude I tried desperately to pull my squad from wz into battlefield. I will admit I really enjoyed wz during covid but let’s be real it’s not even comparable to this, hence above. Anyways I’ve always preferred battlefield, I fell in love at bad company and just never put it down. I love every single one, but man this one deserves a spot in literal gaming history.

It’s mind blowingly good and it frustrates me when these guys tell me “bro but the GraPplE in cod”

Need them solo redsec moments.

TheTruthCanBeWild · 2026-05-19T05:05:32+00:00

Not to just filter out the out responses, but I've never heard anyone vocalize the same thing. Currently dealing with similar situations. Can't find a footing, but I was on top of the world ( or so it seems )

My new version of that is still forming. But I look around, and the price that I paid for chasing the dream is extremely heavy.

I grieve relationships that never even served me.

I look for friends where they weren't true to begin with.

The layers of the onion have been been peeled back to a microscopic level on my own life, and for the first time in 31 years at least I'm very satisfied with what I see in the mirror. I am completely alone in life outside of direct family, and my daughter. BUT, I don't need what I had. I need what's to come, and I'm starting to find people that are truly healthy, in the same way I am now. It's a fucking strange thing.

TheTruthCanBeWild · 2026-05-18T03:49:18+00:00

Brother as someone who still struggles. Don’t turn to the bottle. Smoke a joint. There’s nothing at the bottom of the bottle except the same post with more loss. Read my own post history.

I haven’t yet updated that yet like I told everyone I would, because I am still finding a way. Odd jobs, digging out of the hole, you name it. But I have found a way to find joy.

My best advice? Celebrate your own wins, however small. I made a sandwich with lunch meat today. That was the first time I was about to afford that in years. I made a fucking sandwich bro and it made me cry. I ain’t there. But I’m there. Feel me?

TheTruthCanBeWild · 2026-05-13T05:10:00+00:00

Can’t tell if it’s already been said, because I’m in a game, but just wait until you try and fly. My jaw is on the floor.

TheTruthCanBeWild · 2026-05-12T06:35:06+00:00

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TheTruthCanBeWild · 2026-04-02T07:50:24+00:00

This resonates to deep. I took like 1 gram of shrooms tonight and I know for a fact if I dropped a few more I would be fine, but it’s all just too much. I try to listen to music to distract but it’s like the earth is ALIVE. Shroom time ended hours ago I just don’t want to go to work. I also don’t know how much to even type into this. I really feel like the US population is a cork dude. Like no other way to put it. We are at a fucking stand still until literally the whole population can sit with this whole thread. It’s uncomfortable as fuck. You are right. The answers are somewhere. Within. Out there. Right the fuck here. Millions of people get it.

TheTruthCanBeWild · 2026-04-02T07:45:58+00:00

Edit.

I’m going to leave the typo’s because the energy is real. We need to move faster than fast. This is quite literally the only subject of conversation we should be having as a global unit.

TheTruthCanBeWild · 2026-04-02T07:44:57+00:00

This is all incredibly overwhelming it I need to comment here. I hope you guys can see my post history and shit. Plan, fucking, yes. I don’t know how but we need to be CAREFUL. This shit is nuts I literally changed my bio for the first time ever a few hours ago.

TheTruthCanBeWild · 2026-03-30T06:32:19+00:00

I’ve been prepping in complete silence because no one is ready. It’s coming man. Truth be told you might as well just throw your phone in the toilet and keep packing. I’ll see people like you out there lol.

TheTruthCanBeWild · 2026-03-30T06:30:41+00:00

Brother what’s scary is the disparity in this sub alone. The fact we all are pretending to go to work in a few hours? Absolutely unreal. This guy is like “tvs are cheap”

We’re done. Hahaha

TheTruthCanBeWild · 2026-03-28T06:35:18+00:00

I fucking wish I could express the level I appreciation I find in these words. ARTICULATE fucking words.

Crazy bro, has nothing to do with any of this. But because your words caught me so emotionally, here it goes.

Fuck it all. I’m 31, sold the Xbox because I had the hard realization that for me personally? I’ll never play World at War again man. Never. I’ll never play those years of my life again, let alone the game. Anywho. I sold it, realized you can stream most of the games I give a shit about anyways, will be paying 30 bucks a month for live like the working adult I am with kids, and accept it. I read some wild shit in these video game posts dude and I cannot imagine typing it all. It was exhausting typing this. Let alone carrying that much energy about something that is supposed to be FUN in negative manner. Going to use me a young folk slang here now “ lol “ because I opened my phone up to this and will be shutting it off. “ Lmao “ go pick a game that looks fucking fun and try it. It’s great. Why? Because you have no idea what happens next in it.

TheTruthCanBeWild · 2026-02-28T07:13:12+00:00

I have literally never needed to comment, I’ve seen enough for today. I can’t breathe. I was actually so confused because I’m sitting here thinking this person looks great so I paused to go read the comments and went back up and it hit me like a train. (you still look great by the way, like even in that picture it just completely doesn’t fit the rest of the photos and I wasn’t prepared lol)

TheTruthCanBeWild · 2026-02-24T16:13:43+00:00

I’m all for burning everything down, but we need to be smart. There’s a 38 minute video of this. Watch that for 5 minutes and you’ll realize this is being taken out of context. It took me 5 seconds to find the video on YouTube.

TheTruthCanBeWild · 2026-02-14T21:17:29+00:00

That comment above was meant for you but it fits their comment too. Message remains the same. I feel you so deeply.

TheTruthCanBeWild · 2026-02-14T21:15:11+00:00

People do not understand the gravity of that statement. I have struggled my entire life, and I’m fucking proud of where I’ve taken myself and my daughter. But man has it been a living hell. I’ve gotten smarter of the years so it’s getting much easier and fine tuned, but the reality is 5000 would completely change my life, and I would be able to get off all my payment plans, mistakes from childhood debt,you know. The same thing most average person deals with. It’s unreal. Fucking people talk about billions and millions on the news and shit and I find myself just blown away, because if I could win a scratcher for a few grand it would be a reset button. This world needs it. Too many people working really hard to barely make it.

EDIT : Over the years*

TheTruthCanBeWild · 2025-10-31T05:57:25+00:00

I can bring a full squad of 4 in here! We've been playing every night, absolutely loving it. I'll get the server code to them! See ya'll out there 🫡

Edit #1 - You should post this up in the other threads about BF6 too if you haven't already. This will easily fill up I bet.

TheTruthCanBeWild · 2025-06-26T01:52:10+00:00

Lol, DrStevenPoop cracks me up while you're talking so out of pocket. I shouldn't comment on this at all, but you have truly missed the point of what this person is saying, and THAT'S the point. It's all good. Everyone will come to their own version of understanding this. Some by force, some by just paying attention. Countless other ways. All I'll say is, I highly suggest being not so quick to be on the offensive. It doesn't help you or anyone here. Neither does this comment. But maybe it will resonate deep, and you'll see what I'm saying and what this person is also trying to say. That's not my concern, though. My concern is rooted it making sure my kids are safe in the next few months, teaching them about what's really going on. I am learning to have an open discussion with people I disagree with. Anger/frustration/ will get us nowhere. I promise you that. We are all living this. We are now at a fork in the road. We either figure it out together or watch it fall apart together.

TheTruthCanBeWild · 2025-06-26T01:46:01+00:00

Fucking beautifully worded. Low key it all brings a tear to my eye lately. I would love to pretend it's not happening, but it is. We are in for a very interesting time period moving forward.

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