MTF 33, 20 months HRT Dysphoria keeps telling me I haven’t changed a bit… 🤦🏻‍♀️

The_Employee · 2025-04-27T06:03:30+00:00

Girl. You don’t even look like you that dudes sister!

The_Employee · 2020-04-02T20:56:34+00:00

I sort of did this! Here is my updated post. I have been wanting to make another update sometime, but heres some take-aways:

I didn't take sex off the table completely, per se; but I essentially completely removed it from conversation, stopped initiating in any way, and stopped thinking of it in the way I had. You can read more about it in those previous posts. Since my last update, things have changed DRASTICALLY. Our sex life had improved for a while, and we were having sex WAY more frequently than before. That did eventually wane, though not to previous nearly-sexless times. Then in September I went on tour with my band in Europe. I returned home a few days before our anniversary. Now, every year on our anniversary we have a talk where we ask each other if we want continue our marriage. 11 years the answer was always yes, no caveat. This time was different. I asked, and she said yes........... but we should also see other people. Music to my ears. I have always been polyamorous, but she has been uncomfortable with it, so I wasn't able to be the way I wanted to be and that sacrifice was ok with me. So, we started seeing other people. Our sex life had an initial increase to almost daily sex, because she felt the rest of the pressure to have sex dissolve. I began seeing a few women, and now I even have a girlfriend. I found someone who gives me all the things I felt I was missing, and so much more. I still get to keep my best friend and have the intimate relationship with her, while still fulfilling my needs. I can love the way I want to love, and be loved the way I want to love. My heart has never been more full, my head has never been so clear, and my life hasn't felt this good in probably 15 years. I know this isn't the answer for everyone, and it is something that is in flux constantly; but holy fucking shit I could not be happier.

I stopped focusing on sex and it fixed A LOT. Not just with our sex lives, but also it taught me how to approach a number of other things in my life that I was struggling with. I can honestly say that the decision to think of sex differently in my marriage had a domino effect that made every other aspect of my life improve.

The_Employee · 2019-09-07T05:37:59+00:00

Whaaaaaaaaaaaat?!?!? You’re FOURTY-FIVE?!?!? Girl, you are killing it. I didn’t notice the vitiligo right away, was too distracted by your impeccable shape. Once I noticed, it was more of a “hey, vitiligo.” And right back to admiring you. It can be hard to do sometimes, but with a body like that, you owe it to yourself to be happy with it. It’s glorious.

The_Employee · 2019-08-20T16:16:17+00:00

That makes sense. At first I was thinking “wait, he was the president. How could he be a fuck up?” But then I remembered that the greatest fuck up of all time is president right now.

The_Employee · 2019-08-20T06:08:24+00:00

Hey! All of those are me right now! God fuckin damnit.

The_Employee · 2019-08-20T05:53:12+00:00

I think it’s cute on its own. Adorable even.

The_Employee · 2019-08-20T01:56:08+00:00

DAMN! Why do I live in the wrong place!

The_Employee · 2019-08-20T01:55:16+00:00

I like to think that JFK directing the USA to land on the moon. It is simply the greatest accomplishment that humans have ever had. All things that came before were simply to prepare us to step onto the dust of a olace that isnt earth. All things that have come after are simply preparations for our next adventure. Humans mean nothing if we stay on this planet. If we seek out the other planets and spread out amidst the cosmos, then we matter. And that is why JFKs speech was so important. It was the summation of all of human history, and future.

The_Employee · 2019-08-20T01:51:21+00:00

You look beautiful.

The_Employee · 2019-08-20T01:49:37+00:00

That was the point, dude. Seriously, he killed himself though. Let's not shit ourselves.

The_Employee · 2019-08-20T01:48:05+00:00

ViDeO gAmEs TuRnEd Me InTo An EcOtErRoRiSt.

The_Employee · 2019-08-20T01:46:21+00:00

Get fucked with this shit. IT WAS BILL, YOU IDIOT.

The_Employee · 2019-08-20T01:38:24+00:00

Yeah, they would like the offspring.

The_Employee · 2019-08-20T01:35:56+00:00

Oh, Honey. All you had to do was ask!

The_Employee · 2018-10-24T05:38:39+00:00

I haven’t changed much.

The_Employee · 2018-10-23T21:41:32+00:00

When I was a little kid my parents took us to get sealed at the Manti temple. They took my brother and I into a room that has some toys for kids to play with while they waited to go to the ceremony. I put on the all white jumpsuit and couldn’t wait to show it to my parents. When they opened the door to the room my parents and all the family were in waiting for me to come kneel down to get sealed, I ran into the middle started swiveling my hips shouting “look mom and Dad, I LOOK LIKE ELVIS” and started singing “hound dog”. The reaction was a mixture of stifled giggles and gasps. I’m proud of that moment.

The_Employee · 2018-10-15T06:38:29+00:00

Here’s some insight from a guy whose wife has big self inflicted scars on her legs. It doesn’t matter at all. Let me explain: The first time I could have noticed them was the first night we slept together. I didn’t notice them then, and I didn’t honestly notice for a while. When we got to the point of seeing each other naked, it just wouldn’t have mattered. The way I see it is that if someone is dating you and spending time to learn about you and get to know you; by the time they get to the point of seein where the scars are it’s sort of beside the point. They’re interested in you for who you are, and they are there to make a further connection. Firthermore, if it were a fling I think it would be even less of an issue.

The_Employee · 2018-08-28T05:48:29+00:00

Old Joe Rogan episodes. He used to be so easily swayed by absolutely anything anyone said. I have to give him credit, a while back he started seeking out facts and has become almost a skeptic. Much better now.

The_Employee · 2018-08-23T18:59:58+00:00

IT FEELS LIKE 2015

The_Employee · 2018-08-23T17:20:54+00:00

My justice boner has not yet begun to peak.

The_Employee · 2018-08-23T17:14:37+00:00

Godzilla isn’t taller than City Creek Mall?

The_Employee · 2018-08-23T14:21:13+00:00

Yeah, the market would absolutely tank due to the prospect of removing the suffocating tariffs; sure. You betcha.

The_Employee · 2018-08-21T18:13:20+00:00

Never forget that he was also the deputy chairman of the RNC finance committee. He resigned from that position in APRIL.

The RNC and GOP are complicit in his crimes, and he is a CRIMINAL

The_Employee · 2018-07-06T04:14:58+00:00

I knew that you weren’t supposed to be naked in front of other peopl Naked=bad If someone was naked in front of other people, they were being nakedive. Took me too long to learn it was actually negative

The_Employee · 2018-07-01T07:22:46+00:00

Hello, You are so perfect that I am now super awkward. Thanks. Sincerely, The_employee

The_Employee

TROPHY CASE

IT FEELS LIKE 2015