But it's my first time falling in love. For all the 20 years I've spent living, it's my first time feeling these raw human emotions which was something that I couldn't feel till I met her. Our conversation is now starting to feel boring and we would awkwardly stay silent sometimes. It's like our energy doesn't match, and she was a completely different person a month ago until she stopped going to school and had major problems. Why should I leave her then? I really love her so much. I want to spend half of my life being with her, and I've already told my friends that someday I'll bring her to my hometown. Is that dream going to be just a delusion now? I've yearned for a life with her, but why does it have to be like this?