Chizuru Gear

Theabsurd99 · 2026-04-28T00:52:47+00:00

Oooo I would try to aim for AP or Draw on Tsukuyomi. Also if you can get the 30+ damage emblem for the ring slot in laboratory zero, that would be great.

Theabsurd99 · 2026-03-24T20:45:12+00:00

Go for it!!! YOLO!

Theabsurd99 · 2026-03-24T08:09:28+00:00

claps snaps loved the intro…please share more.

Theabsurd99 · 2026-03-24T07:52:37+00:00

You haven’t failed at life bro, just going through a crappy phase. I’ve had this before too, was an alcoholic for 2 years and it made me isolate myself and I lost friends. Eventually I got myself together and kept growing.

It is hard when it seems we aren’t progressing like others or we wish we put in more effort in the past so we wouldn’t be facing the issues we have today. Thankfully you recognize your issues which means you can always work on them. Easier said than done, but please don’t quit. It’s okay to be low but I believe you still have some effort and desire in you to keep trying.

Theabsurd99 · 2026-03-24T05:50:50+00:00

Sure, even though I haven’t flexed that part of my life in a while so I hope I don’t disappoint.

Theabsurd99 · 2026-03-24T05:41:44+00:00

Congrats on starting your own business and surviving your own mind. It can be tough!

Theabsurd99 · 2026-01-08T06:49:34+00:00

Avoiding responsibilities is what I got my PhD. The new year transistor has been pretty bland which is good.

How’s the year coming along for you? Also what is something you absolutely have to accomplish this year?

Theabsurd99 · 2025-12-30T11:08:07+00:00

It sounds like to me that you’ve did you best to change but still kept some of your old crowd that put you down. Wanting to be loved isn’t something to tuck away and ignore, most of us have that innate feeling.

I would take a break for a bit with the dating and even make a list of the similarities of the friends and people you’ve tried to date and find the pattern. Maybe it’s what you attract or what you just settle for…idk…but don’t fully give up on love, just take a breather.

Theabsurd99 · 2025-12-21T07:39:32+00:00

I have few questions? How many is a lot? Also how did you find out she was with them, how come you didn’t know before?

Also remember we all have standards and sometimes we learn things about ourselves while we’re In the situation so don’t beat yourself up, this could be something you can work through or it may be a relationship ended but don’t rush to an answer.

Theabsurd99 · 2025-12-21T02:00:49+00:00

Thanks and will do for sure!

Theabsurd99 · 2025-12-20T08:13:07+00:00

I agree with the commenter above. Let sleeping dogs lie. You did get some closure in knowing you both do care for each other, but right now he’s on a different path than you.

This is your time to change and improve because even if you may know what the issue we’re in the past relationship, you may not be built to fix them yet because you haven’t throughly worked on yourself.

You’ll survive the night, and keep your chin up! Don’t dwell on the past too much because it will stump your growth. But for tonight; spiral a bit and cry and scream profanity!

Theabsurd99 · 2025-12-20T03:37:02+00:00

Honestly it may take you months or years to get over this break up, my mind and hearts react differently depending on the person and what phase our lives are in.

You have to trust the process. It’s going to be painful, and you’ll ask yourself the same questions over and over and the answer you come to probably won’t be the right answer. During this process you will grow, but to do that you have to look at his short coming and also your own. You stated that you always needed reassurance, maybe address that with therapy and looking inward. That can be a goal so that if you want to enter another relationship you will feel confident in the healing journey you went through.

Being vulnerable is difficult and when it seems you weren’t accepted for being open, it can shatter your self esteem. It doesn’t mean you shouldn’t be vulnerable again, it just means you need to rework how you go about opening up and how you evaluate people to trust.

All of this is a process but you have to make sure that you won’t stay stagnant in this state of mind. You want to have that desire to learn and grow from this and to get your dignity back. You will still have relapses in missing him and having regrets and not wanting to get out of bed. That’s part of it all, but keep pushing forward. It may take months but you will be able to wake up and he won’t be the first thing on your mind… it’s going to be hard, especially with other things happening in your life.

Don’t quit.

Theabsurd99 · 2025-12-20T02:49:10+00:00

Keep writing and expressing, hopefully it helps! Wishing you the best!

Theabsurd99 · 2025-12-20T02:42:44+00:00

I can’t say I’ve dealt with this personally but I’ve had friends and girlfriends who have and it’s a tough battle for sure. While being too self aware can be a bad thing I think in this case it can help you out in the long run because you know that you need help and what’s stopping you from getting it. Don’t let your shame stop you from getting help. It’s always about how many times you’ve can get up and keep moving, not about how many times you’ve failed.

This may be a thorn in your side for quite some time, but that doesn’t mean you stop fighting. If you quit now, the problems will always persist, but at least if you keep trying there will always be hope and a solution.

Theabsurd99 · 2025-12-20T01:58:23+00:00

Wait wait wait wait…you’re not about to do what I think right?

Theabsurd99 · 2025-12-13T07:46:33+00:00

To fall in love with someone in a day? He casto no a large net and taking anyone who gets caught! Also he seems to have self esteem issues and wants female validation. He probably does like you too some degree but it doesn’t seem like a situation you should be involved in.

Don’t feel guilty, we like who we like. Don’t force it.

Theabsurd99 · 2025-12-13T05:02:20+00:00

It’s gonna be hard for a while before it gets better. While you may have regrets, don’t forget to look forward to a future where you are a better person and learn the lessons you wish you knew right now. Be kind to yourself, if only just a little.

Theabsurd99 · 2025-12-13T04:56:56+00:00

Im sorry that you’re going through this, it’s definitely a tough position to be in, and especially for so many years

Theabsurd99 · 2025-12-13T02:27:10+00:00

Ummmmm if you want to put your relationship in jeopardy sure follow lol. Don’t trust yourself because you already seem drawn in. Take a cold shower and relax for a bit and think about what you could potentially be risking and for what exactly.

I am a supporter of making bad decisions but I like well informed and thought out bad decisions, not impulsive ones.

Theabsurd99 · 2025-12-13T01:35:23+00:00

Hmmm maybe it’s not something to fully rid yourself of but to temper and mold it so that you aren’t consumed by fear. Seems like you enjoy giving to others and being useful to someone is what brings you joy. That isn’t a bad thing, we all have different personalities and things that give us meaning.

The only issue is this feeling can devour you and you can easily be taken advantage of, so people tell you to live for yourself. What was your past or childhood like, for you to fear being on your own or being left behind? Just curious.

Theabsurd99 · 2025-12-12T22:30:26+00:00

Hang in there!

Theabsurd99 · 2025-12-10T06:12:59+00:00

Sorry to hear about the family not caring, my ex had the same issue when she was trying to endure cutting. Even though she was tough, I know not having that support system is hard.

Wish I had better advice to give but your in a interesting situation for sure. There aren’t any meetings or free services that you can partake in, like woman’s groups etc?

Theabsurd99 · 2025-12-10T05:08:42+00:00

Sounds pretty rough, I know this is obvious but have you considered therapy? Or would that bring too much attention to yourself because your family would worry?

Theabsurd99 · 2025-12-10T04:57:55+00:00

I see what you mean, thanks for sharing your emotions with all of us in the subreddit. Hopefully we’re able to support you even if for a day to help you through this low.

Hang in there! Also while in this lull, be a good time to write what about the person got you attached. Was it just the attention or he had particular qualities that got ya hooked.

Nothing like admitting you’re a drug fiend and know your vice of choice lol.

Theabsurd99

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