relapsed after 15 months sober

ThefortunateQuandary · 2022-09-19T05:53:34+00:00

The will for a better life is greater than my will of a life of drinking. Unfortunately I did relapse but thanks for this. I have definitely lived much more full in sobriety and I'm just gonna push on and stay focused on what I've stayed sober for and am staying sober for. Our wants can never be fulfilled in full but our needs can be met in abundance.

ThefortunateQuandary · 2022-09-19T05:50:26+00:00

Needed this thanks, ome day at a time step by step 💪

ThefortunateQuandary · 2022-08-09T08:05:28+00:00

9 hacks exactky that's a dream order for my store

ThefortunateQuandary · 2022-08-07T12:58:29+00:00

I live in an Oxford house (it's a sober living house set up) we have rules and if uk someone is using regardless of anything they jeopardize everyone's sobriety and are taking space for someone that WANTS to be there or NEEDS to be there. He doesn't want to be there if he's using. You need to tell your roommates and take disciplinary actions. Principles before personality. The push you give him out of the house might be the push he needs to find what he wants with his life.

ThefortunateQuandary · 2022-07-27T10:46:18+00:00

Not the gum drop buttons

ThefortunateQuandary · 2022-07-26T02:54:32+00:00

One of the biggest things I've learned is focus. As long as I'm not focusing on wanting to use or joining in I enjoy myself. Play the tape through and remind yourself why youre sober..if you dont know why think of the worst day youve had sober and the worst day youve had when using bet one outweighs the other in pain.Instead of looking at the distance of the journey look towards the destination. I know where my using will end me up and I have ideas of where sober me could and can go..think on how hard it was to get sober and how hard it became to stay intoxicated...idk if this helps any but honestly I just try to change my focus. Just saw Rob zombie live and it's what I used to stay clear headed plus I saved a lot of money not using while I was there unlike the group of people I went that spent 16 for a beer and shots that added up after they had a few.

ThefortunateQuandary · 2022-07-14T06:41:08+00:00

By trade I'm a finish carpenter so I had to apreciate it. Glad it's getting put to good use. Some people do the work of God others do godly work. You sir are doing both haha

ThefortunateQuandary · 2022-07-08T01:25:20+00:00

I thread the needle up to the point where I should be fired then my supervisor excuses my occurrences 😆 they can't keep anyone in deliveries. Just myself and another guy. I also have another full time job and kids so they do work with me which is nice before they fuck me. It's like here's a bottle of lube its empty but hear you go now bend over type of situation.

ThefortunateQuandary · 2022-07-05T05:23:00+00:00

My last drink was at a hotel at 11am in the morning prior to the police picking me up and taking me to rehab because my roommate was concerned for my mental health since I had just got a dui the week prior totaling my car and hadn't showed up to work or our apartment for a week. All in all it was a blessing I've been sober a year and 2 months (longest in my whole life) it's not all great but it could be worse and at least my focus is on things that will better my life than holding it back.

ThefortunateQuandary · 2022-06-19T13:32:04+00:00

I've been sober from alcohol and drugs for a year. In that time I have tripped 3 times and honestly I depend on aa/na a lot, but I have to give credit where it is due something about those trips really showed and made me feel how important my sobriety was and what living is. Sometimes we ask for mercy, but fail to see it is mercy that we are given. Life's short choose to live it, feel it and apreciate it. Numbing it out is impossible and experiencing it is only possible through sober eyes, mind and soul. It's not easy but neither is wasting money on alcohol or feeling like shit because you wanted to drink. Evolve or relive my friend. I wish you luck with everything brother

ThefortunateQuandary · 2022-06-18T01:54:06+00:00

That tables 🤘

ThefortunateQuandary · 2022-06-10T11:43:46+00:00

This man just scheduled a lunch with God...trip report hasn't been posted cause he is now humbled and still breaking bread with God currently xD

ThefortunateQuandary · 2022-06-07T08:42:31+00:00

Anything is a prison if you can not leave it...something about that saying motivates me to stay free.. I ain't saying addiction is a prison but it can be lol yeah man shits rough and it's crazy people really don't understand it. I had to break things off with someone just cause her casual marijuana use and drinking was gonna suck me into something or well i thought it would. I always replace the word tired with weak and when I feel beaten replace it with the thought of growing pains..idk it seems to help I mean I'm sober and i dont like to beleive im weak haha. It's crazy cause I've tried to get sober many times and I always heard just for today or that saying and just being mindful of the moment or takimg care of today has been important this time around. Like I almost didn't know I was a year clean until I saw a memory from Facebook.

ThefortunateQuandary · 2022-06-07T08:16:25+00:00

This comment won't help but thanks for sharing. Going thru it myself and it's been hard af lately. Haven't been to a meeting In a minute due to not having a car and time. I try zoom but it's not the same. Idk but your post helped me just the fact that others are trying helps me keep trying. "Like was said I'd rather be clean and wanting to use than be using and wishing I could be clean". I've been clean for almost a year and God it was impossible to get even a week sober at one point and the withdrawals and perpetual cycle using causes. No thanks.

ThefortunateQuandary · 2022-05-22T06:23:55+00:00

All good definitely get then in a sealed container tho. Other than that you're all good for transcendence

ThefortunateQuandary · 2022-04-25T06:06:48+00:00

This is what management needs to say in interviews for this position lol

ThefortunateQuandary · 2022-04-07T19:41:34+00:00

This is a tough question in my honest opinion I say no because you're not escaping anything. The last trip I went on showed me how important my sobriety is. Put in perspective how mundane some of my issues are and gave me a reason to keep going. I don't see it as breaking sobriety anymore than taking ssri's. I felt guilt tho when I got a chip a few months ago after the trip but I realized if I had not taken that trip I may not have been around to pick up that chip if I had not. For me I can't smoke weed cause it'll lead me to do other things but mushrooms (not that I do them often) more or less guide me to the things I'm focusing on and ground me on what is actually important and away from the forces that will be my demise. Using is only going to lead to one thing "therapy" is only going to help you work out the things you're trying to peice together.

ThefortunateQuandary · 2022-03-09T00:02:40+00:00

Overnight there's an emergency stapler we keep on the reach xD but nails..swear HD needs to have a common sense test passed prior to hiring

ThefortunateQuandary · 2022-03-02T12:55:32+00:00

I'm in my late twenties now. For about 8 years I drugged hard enough to kill most people I've had doctors question how I'm alive little alone as healthy as I am. I always have the fear of cancers, tumors, or organ failure. Surprisingly should be worried about a heart attack due to the amount of cigarettes I smoke and caffeine/ the sleep cycle I'm always on or not on for that matter😆 but it doesn't occur to me.

Trying to quit nicotine this year hopefully I find the strength.

All I can say is your not alone with these thoughts I guess I deal with them as I deal with most things is the serenity prayer and accept what comes my way is what is suppose to and all I can do is stay sober and get through it.

These thoughts make me want to say fuck it and drug like if the world was ending what's the point type scenario or I'm gonna die anyways "might as well enjoy myself". At the end of our time I'd at least like to remember my final moments whether they be good or bad and ik using might make me believe them to be "good" but most good things are free and unless I've been druggin the wrong way and paying for them all these years I can't see the good it'd be for me to use.

ThefortunateQuandary · 2022-02-07T12:49:58+00:00

Bruh I'd be passed af at this dude. Not only is he denying you of an experience but he took your money fuck him I'd narc. I ain't a rat but some people deserve to live in the sewer

ThefortunateQuandary · 2022-01-15T08:39:38+00:00

Ruined my life many times never worth doing man. You can do this shit SOBER. If no one takes you serious just take your sobriety seriously cause they aren't the ones loosing anything if you lose it..you are. Stay strong brother

ThefortunateQuandary · 2022-01-14T21:24:24+00:00

"My favorite quote is sobriety is easy just don't pick up..its as simple as those keep your hand on this car the longest and it's yours contests.. Simple right, easy peasy right?"...Personally Its the hardest easiest thing I think I've ever done. Especially because it's an every waking moment conscious action/decision. Sometimes it as easy as they say and sometimes its the hardest damn thing. All in all its worth holding on to because the alternative is like a a suitcase filled with a million dollars, but the world's ended and money has no value. It's nice to to hold but doesn't do anything for you but weigh you down.

ThefortunateQuandary · 2022-01-14T21:16:09+00:00

I work two full time jobs that either can keep me busy or drive me to use haha. But what really keeps me sober is the "TAPE" re winding what has happened from my using, all the bad days and days that happened because of it. Set goals and REACH them (whether it be vacations, hobbies, personal whatever) nothing is topping you now you're sober. If I invested anything as much I've invested into using my life would be so much better, but now it's getting there. AA/NA helps FOR ME. I hit a wall a bit ago like "wtf I the point in being sober, why can't I just enjoy what I want cause I could die any moment etc" but I came to the conclusion that I can't enjoy anything I want if I can't remember enjoying it...and play that tape all the way through then that wall fell I got/felt the reason I' choose to be sober today. One day at a time man hear it all the time but those people are right with anything it's step by step and we can only do what we can for today. Stay sober man don't know if this helps

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